As I sit here on my break, just pondering my time already spent on this website. I'm reminded of my thoughts the other day. I was essentially concerned about comparing myself with one of my friends at work. In the way that the majority of men do on this website. And it's really the first time I had been finding myself doing it in a way where I wanted, or rather, felt I had to be bigger then him.
And then I stopped and wondered how I had gotten like this. It's not me, I was brought up to enjoy what you have. Not to be jealous of others and so on. Even though I have self image issues, It does not mean I can become arrogant and jealous.
As well as that, I'm finding the shyness I once felt, and slight embarassment of being on camera fading faster then I thought it would. Even though I still don't like my face being on cam, more so because I don't like the way I look. I don't think I would mind someone recognising me.
There is certainly a lot to ponder.
And then I stopped and wondered how I had gotten like this. It's not me, I was brought up to enjoy what you have. Not to be jealous of others and so on. Even though I have self image issues, It does not mean I can become arrogant and jealous.
As well as that, I'm finding the shyness I once felt, and slight embarassment of being on camera fading faster then I thought it would. Even though I still don't like my face being on cam, more so because I don't like the way I look. I don't think I would mind someone recognising me.
There is certainly a lot to ponder.