Reflecting

Back when I was 18, I was really confused about the world and my sexuality. I had (and I still do have) body confidence issues. Thinking about all the 18+ guys on here that show off and get positive feedback, it would have been amazing to have a site like this to support and educate me. And of course entertain me with pics, vids and discussions.

Of course, the internet hadn’t been invented back then, porn was limited to ‘art’ books, top shelf magazines and mail order companies for crappy quality VHS. It’s interesting to me how different I could have spent my late teens and 20s if I had more confidence and support in my ideas, outlook and decisions.

I’m just reflecting on what could have been..

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Thanks for sharing ur story love...

As for me i am a muscular person and manly too(not effeminate) but i am attracted towards hot men... i get horny and like to spent time with men. I had sex with men and women but when u want to have pleasure i really like men. I finally came out as bisexual in the society and everyone has started to like me... i even request all my friends to come up and face the situation... love u guys...muahhhh
 
I wasn't confused abut my sexuality when I was 18 buit there wasn't a lot of information about being gay, and porn was down to girly mags and Health and Efficiency (with air brushed pube less models and seemingly long slender cocks), anything decent has to come from the continent and was feverishly wanked over and passed on. Even the VHS tapes were so used the sound effects told more than the pictures but dam, it was raunchy trying to make myself go blind as I wanked and wanked. Of course they were all i black and white, when other material started to arrive in colour they guys were hunks, tanned and blond with so much confidence as the allowed their bodies to be penetrated, their mouths abused and in turn fucked a tight young ass. Then I realised my puny arms and pigeon chest didn't come up to par, my only assets, my cock, pert ass and kissable lips couldn't compete with these god like creatures.
Ah yes, the internet has a lot to give and be grateful form a fount of knowledge even if sometimes it burst bubbles about the guys in the sex films being filled with drugs, bodies freshly pumped to look good and in reality no one could perform like that for as long and still look good for the camera.
(and this is where some will claim otherwise)
But back to the original statement, wow, yes, having this stuff at my finger tips during my formative years would have been an absolute joy.
 
I feel similarly about my own sexuality. Thought I was 100% straight until I saw hard, throbbing cocks online. That wasn’t until my late teens though and then I spent several years being confused.

if I’d had that ‘awakening’ earlier my teenage years would have been very different.
 
Im so happy i live in a world with easily abundant free porn and its so easy to meet similar people online, whatever your orientation, fetish, belief, disability or whatever else.

i would hate to think in previous generations i would have to go to some expensive and very noisy bar where i can hardly hear anything and just hope i got to meet the perfect person who wants me. the modern app system is so incredibly efficient and convenient, and the dating pool is essentially infinite.

being gay or bi is becoming a normal thing now. i envy the kids at school who live in that world, and im not even much older then them. trans being normal is next.

its amazing to think what the future will bring, we are not even getting started with the potential for technology to change the world.
were moving into a world of womb/penis/testicle transplants for transgenders, male contraceptives, condoms that feel like no condom and vaccines for stds.

drugs that can enable better male multiple orgasms much more easily, you'll be able to control your own horniness level using hormone adjustments,

a world where a ai algorithms find you the perfect person who is attracted and compatible based on your preferences and personality type and interests.

age reversal technology is a massive area of investment.

its gonna get nuts.
 
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I completely understand you. I am a closeted bi - if I could have reached the internet when I was 18 ..I would probably never marry - and I would live a gay life somewhere abroad.
Now I am hiding and it makes me mad . I could only hurt those who loves me - tahts how I feel ,,,
But I also thank for being this site and others too - it really helped me to discover my sexuality .
 
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Its so sad that one can be so affected by ones sexuality and the acceptance or otherwise of a community. Many people just drifted about wearing two identities not really happy with either.
To risk coming out to family? Coming out at work? All very difficult as so many of us drifted along pretending the truth wasn't us, but not wanting to be judged by the stereotypes, placed into a "box". Sometimes you just go with the flow, don't make a big thing of it and find that its ok. A prince isn't any less princely because he's gay (but locked in a closet) a writer doesn't write, composer compose or artist paint worse because of their sexuality.
So yes, its good to have a place to rant and shout and express how you feel - isn't that what communities are for?
 

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