So, I realized the other night why I am still alone and still a virgin. It isnt lack of confidence, it isnt looks, it isnt any number of other things that you might associate with why. It is, however, a common reason. Low self-esteem. I never thought it was possible to be as confident or as happy as I am to have self-esteem issues. Outwardly, everybody that I know thinks of me as the happiest man alive that never gets angry or sad. I dont think anybody wouldve thought my value of myself would be an issue. However, it looks like that is the case. Whatever caused it, I dont know. Maybe it was goals set by the rest of my families accomplishments that I wanted to meet. Or something entirely different.
In the end, that doesnt matter. Because now that I know what the problem is, I can work on fixing it. I am going to stop living so much for other people, and more for myself. It is going to be interesting, hard, and awkward for me to change. I have lived my entire life for the happiness of other people. It isn’t so bad to be a little selfish, is it?
In the end, that doesnt matter. Because now that I know what the problem is, I can work on fixing it. I am going to stop living so much for other people, and more for myself. It is going to be interesting, hard, and awkward for me to change. I have lived my entire life for the happiness of other people. It isn’t so bad to be a little selfish, is it?