I have continued to see this guy, once a week, or fortnight or even month. New Zealand had a second lockdown so that put some distance between us. He always seems a little sex averse, he'll steer things away with a statement - taking rests and pauses or telling me I don't have to exert myself or make an effort. I've enjoyed the affection but we have never had sex in all these months.
Last weekend I finally got him to relax enough to suck his dick and make him cum. I didn't notice the semen at all, just vanished except for the last visible drop to leave his penis when it was outside my mouth. It's a beautiful penis - the same size and mine but consistently and gently widening the whole way down so it feels quite full to hold him at the base.
Why won't he fuck me - or get fucked?! I don't know. I don't like to put pressure on anyone.
I guess my libido has been low for a few months
Last weekend I finally got him to relax enough to suck his dick and make him cum. I didn't notice the semen at all, just vanished except for the last visible drop to leave his penis when it was outside my mouth. It's a beautiful penis - the same size and mine but consistently and gently widening the whole way down so it feels quite full to hold him at the base.
Why won't he fuck me - or get fucked?! I don't know. I don't like to put pressure on anyone.
I guess my libido has been low for a few months
I've been using Facebook to socialise just a little - a kayak trip and now a weekend away with a whole new group of men. I got to experience some warmth and intimacy with a guy. He rubbed his semi-hard cock against my own and kissed me a little. Trouble is my stomach doesn't travel so well and I was bloated, uncomfortable and not really feeling a connection to my own sexual energy. Oh well. I went to bed and he didn't seem to feel rejected. Have text again since. May get a chance to hang out again.