So, June wasn't a big month for me sexually. The Keto flu fat-adaptation phase tanked my libido for a few weeks and then I had a writing deadline for my PhD that filled me with stress and poor sleep. The guy I mentioned in my last entry let me know he'd tested positive for chlamydia, so it takes a whole week to turn around tests on the public system here. I'm waiting four more days to see if I need to take some antibiotics or not.
I had sex with him about a half dozen times a few years back. But he reached out because he had dealt with me under a fake name and identity while he was still living with his wife. Now he's separate and just wanted to clear the air. That's all good. He picked me up and prepared a salad for our lunch. We had a decent chat. He did this slightly annoying thing, which is to verbally dismiss sex as an option and then... once the meal was concluded, to seek to initiate it even after I kinda turned him down (I just wanted to get back to writing). So I fucked him and then brought him to orgasm orally. It was okay. Not a great sexual event. Nice guy. But no huge attraction there.
We met again. I think when he fucks me he wants to put in a good effort and he sort of forgoes seeking his own orgasm in order to tick a few boxes over duration and intensity. The sex was good, but he didn't come from fucking (second time in a row now for him). I think next time I will demand that he fuck me only for his own pleasure and bust his nut, and not as some kind of performance. I really don't care if it's only two minutes long as I'm going to fuck him afterwards regardless.
He sat on my dick and leaned forward and kiss me. I fucked him from underneath and held on to his large ass. I came inside him - pretty happy as this is only the second time in my life that I have had an orgasm in this position - but I've been practicing with my sex toy. I put a pillow on my belly, then a towel and toy, then another pillow and I fuck it while I lay on my back. Only took a few solo plays to create a strong potential that I could climax like this with a partner. So that was good.
He sat on my dick and leaned forward and kiss me. I fucked him from underneath and held on to his large ass. I came inside him - pretty happy as this is only the second time in my life that I have had an orgasm in this position - but I've been practicing with my sex toy. I put a pillow on my belly, then a towel and toy, then another pillow and I fuck it while I lay on my back. Only took a few solo plays to create a strong potential that I could climax like this with a partner. So that was good.
I had corresponded with a dude who doesn't live in my city but was here for business. He has a nice demeanor. Mostly we talked about NoFap and about sexual fulfillment, but then we haven't really text in the last two months. We met for a drink, and then a tea in his room. There wasn't a great sexual chemistry but his ass was pretty tight and his thrusting back on to my cock actually felt good rather than disorienting (as some other guys do it). I came in him, and then he struggled to find his orgasm. He tends to cum while penetrated and I had just dipped below the rigidity required to get back inside a fuller-figured man. I liked that his erection pointed away from his body. We showered together after sex, and had a nice goodbye.
After having a burger with a really nice, smart chap a week prior - I was invited to join a group of four other guys who were attending the first gay dance party our city has had since the lockdown ended. We had a pre-drink and something to consume at the apartment. He had instructed me to wear short-shorts and to expect to be topless. So I had tiny gym shorts on under my jeans, which I just put in my backpack anyway.
The night went really well. I was in a state of complete self-satisfaction and enjoyment of the music that I didn't really need to put any effort into interacting, talking or trying to make out with anyone. A dude who I have flirted with on Instagram, but lives two hours out of the city, was there with his husband and he kissed me in passing two or three times - nice soft lips inside a nest of facial hair. I hugged a few friends. There was a lot of shoving on the dance floor, which was annoying but didn't cross a line.
In the toilets, a large, bright, circular room with mirrored doors - I met another guy who has told me on Grindr that he wants to fuck me (U=U). So that was nice to say hi and talk very briefly but I really couldn't communicate much deeper than to say my own name. And then later on I ran into a guy who I've conversed with on Grindr too. He had been in quarantine and wants to be fucked - so I guess I will get on to that once my sexual health check comes back.
One of the guys who was in our initial group was very attractive. I think maybe he looked at my once or twice on the dancefloor but his face was often plugged in to another's, and I felt quite content on my own. For some reason traps/neck/shoulders were really turning me on that night and his were a special set of lean white flesh.
Oh, and I saw, but didn't talk to another dude that has flirted with me on SnapChat. Later on I complimented him and he seemed happy enough, responding via Grindr. Largely abandoned by those I arrived with (the main guy just likes to chat to everyone and seems to know everyone!) I walked 35 minutes back to my car and went home. Good night out.
The night went really well. I was in a state of complete self-satisfaction and enjoyment of the music that I didn't really need to put any effort into interacting, talking or trying to make out with anyone. A dude who I have flirted with on Instagram, but lives two hours out of the city, was there with his husband and he kissed me in passing two or three times - nice soft lips inside a nest of facial hair. I hugged a few friends. There was a lot of shoving on the dance floor, which was annoying but didn't cross a line.
In the toilets, a large, bright, circular room with mirrored doors - I met another guy who has told me on Grindr that he wants to fuck me (U=U). So that was nice to say hi and talk very briefly but I really couldn't communicate much deeper than to say my own name. And then later on I ran into a guy who I've conversed with on Grindr too. He had been in quarantine and wants to be fucked - so I guess I will get on to that once my sexual health check comes back.
One of the guys who was in our initial group was very attractive. I think maybe he looked at my once or twice on the dancefloor but his face was often plugged in to another's, and I felt quite content on my own. For some reason traps/neck/shoulders were really turning me on that night and his were a special set of lean white flesh.
Oh, and I saw, but didn't talk to another dude that has flirted with me on SnapChat. Later on I complimented him and he seemed happy enough, responding via Grindr. Largely abandoned by those I arrived with (the main guy just likes to chat to everyone and seems to know everyone!) I walked 35 minutes back to my car and went home. Good night out.