Sexless Diary - 7th January 2021

:emoji_heavy_multiplication_x: No luck - I'm being too picky

I have been back on Grindr, Squirt, DudesNude and Tinder - but I'm not spontaneous enough to make the most of things. I want sex - but I often don't want it immediately; I like to plan and prepare a little bit, even if that's just 2-3 hours into the future.

I was even camping with around twenty gay men - but the only guy I was really turned on by was in a relationships that was in strife, and I didn't want to get mixed up in any of that energy or drama.

My backside is a little prone to inflamed hemorrhoids - so I approach things cautiously with using a dildo gently in the shower etc. That's just a part of reality I have to deal with; so that last thing I want to face is some dick trying to push its way in before I feel relaxed and ready for it. Even though I prefer to top - I believe in reciprocity around sex; if a guy gets to my bedroom I shouldn't be shunning the gift of his erection.

I've been in contact with some fucking sexy men - but our availability and horniness just hasn't lined up quite right yet.
Conversely: I have a gay brother who is visiting and he's already had about eight liaisons in the span of two and a half weeks, he is far more responsive to opportunity than I am; but I also think he has lower standards and is a bit stingy being only a top with hook-ups. We talk about this now and then so I can block men he's been with on Grindr, ha!!

So. I am writing this - telling myself to fuck someone or to get fucked asap.
I am trying.
Today, a guy who wanted sex right now, isn't available this evening, nor is another guy who wants to flip fuck (he has a dinner on). A guy I had sex with a year ago wants me to travel to the North Shore (maybe I'll do that, but 30 mins both ways at least - last time he came two-or-three mins after putting it in). There's this fucking sexy man - but he just wants to masturbate together and he has a partner (timing issues) - and I don't really masturbate . . . so? The guy I thought I was sort of dating - I just can't cope with another episode of him deflecting or delaying sex. Two other guys that want to fuck me are out of the city until the weekend or later.

There's options.

Oh - I'm forgetting my best date - this coming Monday - a hot scholar is keen to be fucked raw and to chat philosophy with me: sexy slim body. I'm looking forward to that, but that's five nights away.​

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Damn buddy, I hear the crushing realization of "being" in your key strokes.

2 things I learned recently. Well one of them we all know.

1. I realized being naked with one or two or 7 other people isn't about cumming but instead enjoy the raw lust and passion (I know its a shit copy and past that is to follow but its true) The journey is much better if I stop looking at the arrival point "aka cumming"

2. And this one we all know. When you want to hook up no one is available and when you don't, grindr sounds off like a football coach's whistle that got stuck in a circus clowns mini car horn .

Video call me on scruff if you want to long distance relief. lol . Hope you have a fantesticle day bud.
 
@Joeme24 Glad to receive your message.

And I am regularly crushed by the realisation of being, ahah, very true.

I'm with you on (1) and (2).

With me - you could rush right ahead to cumming - but stick around for some cuddles and a round two.

For now I guess I'll just enjoy the part of the journey that is surveilling the environment. I think I have a date set for Monday - so as long as he doesn't cancel, I'll see and end to this little drought.
 

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