Has any body else been watching the Oprah series about Men sexually abused as a children?
I've actually never told anyone this but I was sexually abused as a child. I don't think it really affected me as a kid or even as a man except that as I got older I wondered about the kid who did it to me.
It was my cousin who was maybe a year younger then me and he wanted to play this game called Train. He told me to take off all my clothes and he took off his and he put his penis in my behind and he told me I was the engine and he was the caboose. I thought it was stange but he wasnt big enough to penetrate me and it didn't hurt so we ran around playing train for a while.
I was maybe 7 then. I realized by the time I was 10 that I was attracted to guys but I didn't associate it with him and I still don't.
Years later we started having family reunions and when ever I saw him he would look at me with this question in his eyes. Its obvious he wants to talk to me about it but I really didn't want to get into it with him because it didn't really affect me.
But now I'm wondering if I should because I realized that someone taught that game to him and I wondered who that is and now I wonder how it has affected my cousin. I am gay but hes straight and married and every time he looks at me I can see something is really bothering him.
I'm not really interested in coming out to my extended family but I don't like seeing him in pain.
I've actually never told anyone this but I was sexually abused as a child. I don't think it really affected me as a kid or even as a man except that as I got older I wondered about the kid who did it to me.
It was my cousin who was maybe a year younger then me and he wanted to play this game called Train. He told me to take off all my clothes and he took off his and he put his penis in my behind and he told me I was the engine and he was the caboose. I thought it was stange but he wasnt big enough to penetrate me and it didn't hurt so we ran around playing train for a while.
I was maybe 7 then. I realized by the time I was 10 that I was attracted to guys but I didn't associate it with him and I still don't.
Years later we started having family reunions and when ever I saw him he would look at me with this question in his eyes. Its obvious he wants to talk to me about it but I really didn't want to get into it with him because it didn't really affect me.
But now I'm wondering if I should because I realized that someone taught that game to him and I wondered who that is and now I wonder how it has affected my cousin. I am gay but hes straight and married and every time he looks at me I can see something is really bothering him.
I'm not really interested in coming out to my extended family but I don't like seeing him in pain.