Simple Ramblings

Never done this before so I'm going to see what the fuss is about.

Well let me just start and say so far this has been the summer from hell. I was under the impression that there would be more going on this summer so I did not feel too bad when I was heading back to school. Come to find out that everyone that said they would be here decided to take liberty else where. That did not seem to be such an issue seeing as I was going to have one roommate here in the Frat house with me. A week goes by and the AC downstairs goes out. That is where his room is and my roommate has been staying with his Girlfriend at her place.

Fast-forward a week or so and our house is overrun by mickey and his pals. So acting as A the President, and B a tenant I contact our Housing Board to take care of the problems like they legally have to do. This leads to a 2 week email and phone call battle with them that ends in my calling the City to come and fine them. Still have no AC but they hired someone to do the mouse problem. They did not let me or the other guy know when they hired them so it has been an ordeal to say the same for one of us to be here at the house when the exterminator arrives. Add to this our negations for rent and such for the new lease for next year and needless to say stress has ensued.

It would not be that bad if I had someone to at least be with during the day so that I am not left with the thoughts of all this shit going on. The hardest part has been being alone all the time. I'm short on money so I cannot really get out and if I did I have no car so I could not get to where I wanted to go. School is not enough to help keep me busy. I'm left, like now, with a very annoy amount of free, alone, time. I have run out of ideas of things to keep me busy so I am left to wander in my own mind. It is ok for the first hour then I dwell on the simple question, is this what it is going to be like after graduation in December? New city, not much to keep me entertained, no friends around, etc.

This spirals into my thoughts on my "romantic life" or lack there of. 23 years old, never been in a relationship, never been near a relationship, never been on a date, never even had something I could in a delusion call one. Up untill a year or so ago I had never even had any "contact" with another. i was 21 when I had my first kiss among other thing and that was from a drunk random hook-up. Don't remember much but I remember that it happened.

I guess what I'm trying to figure out is how do I find people like me, college/graduate age, for lack of a better way to put it "straight acting" (i hate that label btw), gay, guys that are cool with a newbie to all this bs. Be not out, but have the same experiences that other gay guys my age have. Talk about have your cake and eat it too. I don't know. Not sure what I'm looking from this blog thing but I needed to get all of this out and this seemed to be the only way to do it. I know this was long, and I'm not sure if I really looking for feedback but hey, it might help.

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