So, short story: after 7 years together, me and my boyfriend have decided to press "pause".
I don't even know why i'm writing these things right here (I'm lucky and I have the best friends in the all real world with whom I talk and they help me) but the last couple of days have been pretty rough, so any kind of outburts form, like writing in an almost porn site like this, could be helpful perhaps.
Nothing tragic, just very ordinary: after 7 years it was the right time to do the next step, but he still wasn't ready. We never lived together in the same apartament, I lived with my sister till last summer: my sister's wedding speeded things up, my real need to find a home and my obvious desire to find it with him. But real life problems are always in the middle.
Job, money, stress, decisions with "rest of the entire life stakes" echoes are tough. We felt this problems in simple arguments between us, in serious arguments, and even in bed (oh, here comes the "writing in an almost porn site" side of things). Joining this site years ago helped me to resolve some things in the sexual sphere, including my problems and needs, but the tension of the last months resurfaced in many moments of sentimental and phisical sharing.
Now, we like to say we're in pause. We broke up to be honest, but we did with the promise to revaluate things when the times will be less stressful: his chances at job coul be better, I finally going to graduate this summer, we want to stay together because we love each other and we were building it for the last 7 years. But right now it's time to recharge the batteries: to try to stay alone some time, to try to meet new people, to try to understand what we're missing from each other. It will be very rough, but I know it will be important.
I don't even know why i'm writing these things right here (I'm lucky and I have the best friends in the all real world with whom I talk and they help me) but the last couple of days have been pretty rough, so any kind of outburts form, like writing in an almost porn site like this, could be helpful perhaps.
Nothing tragic, just very ordinary: after 7 years it was the right time to do the next step, but he still wasn't ready. We never lived together in the same apartament, I lived with my sister till last summer: my sister's wedding speeded things up, my real need to find a home and my obvious desire to find it with him. But real life problems are always in the middle.
Job, money, stress, decisions with "rest of the entire life stakes" echoes are tough. We felt this problems in simple arguments between us, in serious arguments, and even in bed (oh, here comes the "writing in an almost porn site" side of things). Joining this site years ago helped me to resolve some things in the sexual sphere, including my problems and needs, but the tension of the last months resurfaced in many moments of sentimental and phisical sharing.
Now, we like to say we're in pause. We broke up to be honest, but we did with the promise to revaluate things when the times will be less stressful: his chances at job coul be better, I finally going to graduate this summer, we want to stay together because we love each other and we were building it for the last 7 years. But right now it's time to recharge the batteries: to try to stay alone some time, to try to meet new people, to try to understand what we're missing from each other. It will be very rough, but I know it will be important.