Sobriety: day one

I recntly admitted to myself that I have a drinking problem. Not just on the weekends. EVERYDAY I find myself at the store buying an 18 pack of Budweiser. And on the weekends I usually spend about 100 dollars on beer plus a bottle of liquor.

For the record, my father was an alcoholic and his father was an alcoholic. My old man dies in a drunk driving accident on Christmas of 1994. And my grandfather on my mother's side died of pancreatic cancer that the doctors attributed to heavy drinking.

Anyway, I couldn't have picked a worse day to start. It's close to Christmas and there's sports left and right. Not to mention hunting season. But when I came home last night, in a drunken daze of course, I was met with a motherly lecture.....from my girlfriend. And it got me thinking, I don't wanna be one of those 45 year old men whose body is 75 years old.

A few drink is okay but not the excessive rate that I was drinking at.

When I wake up on Saturday's, I usually crack a beer around 12 pm when the games start and already have a few bong hits. Today I woke up and had a long talk with my gal. She said she has something special for me if I'm still sober when she gets home from work this evening. Right now I'm home by myself and I'm kicking myself for flushing my weed downthe toilet and pouring my beer down the sink whil trying to fight going to the liquor store which is literally 100 yards from my house. Wish me luck.

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I'm proud of you! You have taken the first step. I highly recommend AA, I know a few people who have had great success following their program.
 
You can do it guy. Just keep your mind occupied on anything other than the stuff you're trying to avoid. Take a 4 hour bath, read a book, dance naked around the house-just don't pick up anything that'll screw with your senses. Spend all day on the internet-rearrange the furniture,..well, not that, since it might make you too tired for the something special your girlfriend has promised you.

As the wise young lady above, njqt, mentioned, take a look at AA. My two closest friends found a great amount of help there. Just wander in, sit down, listen to what they say and identify what traits are similar in your using patterns as theirs.
 
Hang in there. Do anything else ... just don't drink or start using!

I celebrated my 10-year AA birthday a little over a month ago. Hit me back if I can offer any encouragement!
 
Damn, dude. You are one of my favorite posters here. I had no idea that you had this problem, but then I hear that people usually hide it well.

It must take alot of courage to come out and admit yourself, then to others that you have a problem. I hear that's the hardest step to take, so if you can do that then you can go all the way and quit--and, as NJ stated, you don't have to do it alone.

Best of luck.
 
There is never a bad time to stop drinking. I stopped in April of 1988. Why? I couldn't stand my life anymore and when I tried to piss and moan to a friend about it all he said was, "Do you think it's because you drink too much???"
I've been sober ever since but I can't do it alone. There are so many wonderful aspects of being sober....and one of the best ones is sober sex.....believe me!
Wishing you the best.....
Peter
 
I have dropped my consumption of alcohol, but it was never a $100 on a weekend. A bottle of wine, or some beer, but not cases...

Still, I'm dropping what I do slowly and over time. Mostly because I see it as a waste of time and I often fall asleep during movies on the tube and wake up in bed, sleepwalking my way into the bed nest.

Mind you, my wife says there was always me in that haze, and not some Mr Hyde crawling out onto the rug... She agrees that my slow but sure view is a good thing.

And I do like to read poetry before I doze off. It stimulates great dreams.

Good luck to you. It's a health and mental issue, too. And it might affect the usage of your trouser snake....
 
Thanks for the support everyone. Day one is almost over and I haven't left my house once. It's been a long ass day. But just hanging out with my girl has kept my mind off of it.
 
Stay with it, mista geechee. I've always liked your posts.

It'd be a shame if alcoholism made them incomprehensible. :smile:

NCbear (who realizes that's not the only danger in being an alcoholic)
 

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