Sucking the life out of me.

Trying to be a full time parent, full time student, and part time employee is beginning to suck the life out of me, but there isn't really a damn thing I can do about it. I COULD drop out of school, I guess, but that would be stupid... and I can't really stop working because I need the money to support myself to a certain degree. And of course, I can't (nor want to) stop parenting! :tongue: But I have no time for me, and I don't know what to do... I'm going crazy! This past week, I've finally said "fuck it" and started going to the bar again, but now I'm even MORE exhausted than I was before. As I type this, I'm laying in bed with my son trying to get him to sleep so I can continue with my homework. On Friday, I was assigned a total of five chapters to be read, and three assignments to be done by Monday. Yuck. Everywhere I go, I'm doing homework! lol. My son and I went to the park today and I brought my homework with me. I did homework while eating my dinner tonight, and I was doing homework when I ate lunch earlier today. All I've accomplished is reading two chapters and taking notes on them both. (They were both unusually long chapters, unfortunately.) After my son goes to sleep, I'm going to read a third of my two chapters, and get one of my homework assignments done. Tomorrow, I will read the remaining two chapters and do the two other homework assignments seeing as how all of it is for ONE class and it'll be easier if I can focus on one class for the day. I got invited to go to Super Bowl parties, but turned down the invitations after realizing my work load. On Thursday, I worked all day, then picked up my son from the sitters house, came home, did three loads of laundry, cleaned the kitchen, cleaned the bathroom, and did homework. I got up at 7am that morning, dressed at 9am, and didn't get out of my work clothes until after 10pm that night. It wasn't until 10pm that I could finally sit down and relax for a moment. This is how my life has been lately, and I hate it. I don't know if I'll be able to put up with this until May, when the semester ends. Ugh. My schedule basically consists of school on Mon, Wed, and Fri. days... work on Tue and Thurs. days... and then work one night of the week... usually Wednesdays, but not always. And then, of course, I have to find time to be a parent. Gah. I can't wait till Spring Break!

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You need a cheer! :smile:

You can do it!
You can do it! If you put your mind to it!
Buckle down, buckle down,
do it, do it, do it!
 
My hat is off to anyone who can endure the type of difficult schedule Meg finds herself confronted with.
 
Your son is lucky, to have an incredible mom like you!
Steady she goes! You'll make it Meg.
cigarbabe:saevil:
 
A-W-E-S-O-M-E
Tattooed Mama Meg
Awesome are ye! :)

(lol that's kind of a little cheer that they did at a school I went to)

Yeah, professors just don't understand that people have a life outside of school... Just stay focused and don't give up! You'll make it! :)
 
just keep going. it will get easier-- both coping with the schedule and learning how to streamline the studying process. the best thing you can do for yourself with the little free time you have is to pamper yourself. make sure you get enough sleep, take long baths, eat well, make sure your health is attended and by all means, every once in awhile and within reason, TREAT YOURSELF. i'm glad to see that you got your tattoo-- i find that celebrating my victories with tangible things that show how hard i've worked keep me going.
 
Just keep remembering why you are doing this, which I would
assume, is having a better life for both you and your son.
I am really proud of you, it is a wonderful thing you are teaching
your son, the importance of education. Not only are you going
to succeed but you are building a good foundation for your son.
I work with alot of kids whose parents don't give a shit if they
come home at night much less if they did any homework and I won't even get on the subject of role models.
You can do it girl, not much longer till May!
We are there to cheer you on!
 
This will not go on forever...there will come a time in the near future that you will reap the benefits from the hard work and deprivation you are enduring. Keep your mind on the prize!!
 
You're getting aggravated over having no "ME" time, and that's totally understandable....but you sound like you're doing great !

Keep your inner dialog with yourself positive, .....and it sounds like you already do that....

Every mom is a Working Woman.....you are to be commended !
 
YOU........ are a true.... HERO ......meg with a hard working attitude like that meg you can do any thing your a winner girl God bless you and your son.
 
The hard times will pass , you will look back on it all and realize it was all worth it, try and stay......... FOCUSED..... in the moment . GOOD LUCK.
 
You can do it Meg... Days like that are tough, but you know the reward when you finish school will make it sooooo worth it. :)
 
We love you, Meg. I know its hard but one good thing is that it wont last forever. The good thing is that there are people here you can complain to and we will understand! Hang in there, sweetheart. I know you are tired but you are going to get there and we will all be so proud of you!
 
This is almost word for word what my life is like now. New 3mo girl, finance and I both work and go to school. I can definitely empathize. Just keep on keeping on I guess. All you hard work is worth it and will pay off in the end. Good Luck!
 
Nothing I can add except you are amazing and keep on keeping girlfriend. You are, as Mandee says, A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!
 
Once you have that diploma in your hand you'll know it was worth it all.
Remind yourself that it won't always be this stressful and you're creating new opportunities for yourself and your son. We're here for you.
 

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