First of all..I am 24 y/o, bi-male,a nurse by profession, goal oriented and has a positive outlook in life. My story goes like this...I met a guy last October 2011 in a job hunt,...I was forced to give him my number because he said he will give me a position in his company where he is still affiliated...He is 27 y/o, a software engineer and since that day he keeps on sending me messages...he even tried to add me to fb but I refused to confirm(he's fb is in a public mode so I was able to see the pictures and his information)...I told him not to keep in touch with me because I might fall in love with him(that's also the reason why i didn't confirm his fb request)..or the other way around...he said that it won't happen because he has a bf for 3 yrs now...everyday he is calling me....and I am answering it because there is nothing wrong with that and besides...its just a simple talk anyway.... We've been friends for almost 2 mos. and during that span of time I was able to know that just like me, he too had been a sacristan on their parish church and that we have the same given name(it really sound weird to me
)and on the 21st of Dec. 2011..he invited me to go to his place...there, I met his mom and his brother.., during that time, they have a family friend who is staying that night at their house...so me and him had no choice but to share the room with his mom....Of course, I am so positive that nothing will happen to us because we are sharing the room with his mom...but then...when we are about to sleep..he started touching my dick..and kissing me..I really don't know what to do that time...how can he do such a thing in front of her sleeping mom?...well, but then, after a while...he told me to follow him to the bathroom...and said he wanted me and him to jo...when I said "no"..he started to give me a frustrated and an annoyed look...I am really caught in the middle that time.....but still I went after him and made the act. anyway we just sucked and kissed and fondled each other, for he too is afraid that we might get caught by his mom...After that event, I apologized to him and said that I am really embarrassed and ashamed of what had happened and that I feel sorry for his mom because after accepting me and making me feel accommodated to their home..that was what I did in return, He just said don't mind about that. Then, we still keep on sending messages with each other..however, I felt something different for him already... I was fallen in love with him...then I confessed to him about how I feel...and blamed him for what is happening, the fact that I know that he cant be mine...then from that time, he started not talking to me...and the worst is I am already deeply fallen for him..until now I can get over with it..and its hard for me...damn that guy for making me feel this way....I feel really bad about myself..not only that it made me feel sad but it also made my self confidence so low...there is something in him that made me like him more than ever before..maybe because of him being so mysterious yet open and plain...or his success in life...his achievements...the things that we both have in common or maybe the things I found in him that I don't possess...its really hard :frown1: