So, it's 2008. I didn't do anything to ring in the new year. I stayed home. Again. The last time I went out for new year was 2004 into 2005. I got high that night too. First time. Last time.
Bf is sick, so I'm around the house taking care of him. He's easier to deal with when he's sick and he's more appreciative of things.
Still thinking about my friend. His wife just up and left him because she felt she was wasting her life. She's a mother. She left him with the kids. She wasn't really a friend of mine. The husband is my friend. She was a de facto friend. I hope he's ok. He worked so hard to be a good husband and father. The bitch.
So, I have today off. Wonder what I'll do? Probably nothing. Just check on the bf and play World of Warcraft.
Haven't heard from my boy since his realization of how he feels about me. Loving another guy platonically is a challenge. He's trying so hard not to cross that line. I have a hunch that there is more love there than he is willing to deal with right now. I mean, after all we've been through. I was there for the last 11 years. I was there when he broke things off with his fiancee. I was the person he called to come spend New Years with him. Ok, we can't get together without having sex, so I guess platonically is out. Things run deep between us. I'm just glad that it hasn't scared him away from me. Of course, having a bf prevents me from doing anything with him.
Cheating. It's funny...I always thought cheating was you having sex with another person outside of your relationship. I'm told that cheating is worse when you go outside your relationship for emotional things. I barely talk to the bf about things in my life. I have someone else I do that with. Every night on my way from work, we talk on the phone about this and that. So, I'm cheating after all.
Bf is sick, so I'm around the house taking care of him. He's easier to deal with when he's sick and he's more appreciative of things.
Still thinking about my friend. His wife just up and left him because she felt she was wasting her life. She's a mother. She left him with the kids. She wasn't really a friend of mine. The husband is my friend. She was a de facto friend. I hope he's ok. He worked so hard to be a good husband and father. The bitch.
So, I have today off. Wonder what I'll do? Probably nothing. Just check on the bf and play World of Warcraft.
Haven't heard from my boy since his realization of how he feels about me. Loving another guy platonically is a challenge. He's trying so hard not to cross that line. I have a hunch that there is more love there than he is willing to deal with right now. I mean, after all we've been through. I was there for the last 11 years. I was there when he broke things off with his fiancee. I was the person he called to come spend New Years with him. Ok, we can't get together without having sex, so I guess platonically is out. Things run deep between us. I'm just glad that it hasn't scared him away from me. Of course, having a bf prevents me from doing anything with him.
Cheating. It's funny...I always thought cheating was you having sex with another person outside of your relationship. I'm told that cheating is worse when you go outside your relationship for emotional things. I barely talk to the bf about things in my life. I have someone else I do that with. Every night on my way from work, we talk on the phone about this and that. So, I'm cheating after all.