A few months back, I signed up for a dating website, two of them in fact, and although I struck out with most of the women I did find some amount of success with one girl. We've gone out twice and talk almost everyday online.
A few weeks back I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. I think this was a mistake on my part because although we had talked extensively online we had only met once at this point. But, she said "yes" and for the last few weeks we have kinda been bf/gf. We haven't had sex yet, but we have kissed and made out. So I guess we're kind of like a middle school relationship.
Anyway, I'm starting to have doubts about her. I always have doubts about women I date. I just can't bring myself to trust them, but with her I really tried to break that and believe her. That's why I asked her to be my girlfriend. One day while we were talking, she started to really sweet talk me. She was telling me about how important I was to her and how happy I made her. Those words really touched me, because I'm just not used to this idea of someone who isn't my mother caring about me like that, so I threw caution to the wind and asked her to be my girlfriend.
Since then, we've gone out and talked a lot and she's continued to act very sweet towards me. I of course like this. I'm very lonely and I want to have an emotional and physical connection to someone. I've never been able to do that. I've had physical connections with women and emotional connections, but never both at the same time. That bothers me greatly.
I'm 26, but I've never had a real romantic relationship. A lot of that is my fault. I've had a few women in my life who were interested in me and my failings as a human being led to the collapse of those relationships. I don't like that. I want to be with someone. I want to be in a relationship and be happy. All my friends say that being in a relationship won't make me happy, and that's probably true but it can't be any worse than the loneliness that is being single.
That's why I asked this woman to be my girlfriend. She just seemed interested. Most women aren't interested in me. Now, I know that most likely she's not really into me, or at least not nearly as much as she claims to be, and that starting a relationship so quickly is a recipe for disaster, but I can't say that I really care. I'm lonely and talking to her, even just online, does so much to alleviate my loneliness and sadness. I really feel almost happy when I'm with her.
Anyway, I'm starting to have doubts about her. I logged onto the dating site where we met to cancel the auto renewal on my VIP membership and I saw that she had logged in just the day before. Now, it's possible that she's using the site just to make friends, but I find that a little bit doubtful and the really damning thing about this is that she had told me previously that she had stopped using that site. So that's at least one thing that she's lied to me about.
I guess I can't blame her for trying to find other guys. We've only known each other for about two months and haven't even had sex yet. But, I just don't see why she would agree to be my gf and then continue to search for other men. Why would she come onto my so strongly and then just look for someone else behind my back. That doesn't make sense to me. I know I'm not a great catch or anything, so I don't expect for women to value me or have any interest in the idea of being with me, but I don't expect for them to lie about being interested in me. I don't expect for them to exaggerate their desire to be with me. That just comes off as cruel to me.
Anyway, regardless of what happens, at least I've had a good three weeks of being kinda-sorta happy. Maybe for someone like me that's the best I can hope for.
A few weeks back I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. I think this was a mistake on my part because although we had talked extensively online we had only met once at this point. But, she said "yes" and for the last few weeks we have kinda been bf/gf. We haven't had sex yet, but we have kissed and made out. So I guess we're kind of like a middle school relationship.
Anyway, I'm starting to have doubts about her. I always have doubts about women I date. I just can't bring myself to trust them, but with her I really tried to break that and believe her. That's why I asked her to be my girlfriend. One day while we were talking, she started to really sweet talk me. She was telling me about how important I was to her and how happy I made her. Those words really touched me, because I'm just not used to this idea of someone who isn't my mother caring about me like that, so I threw caution to the wind and asked her to be my girlfriend.
Since then, we've gone out and talked a lot and she's continued to act very sweet towards me. I of course like this. I'm very lonely and I want to have an emotional and physical connection to someone. I've never been able to do that. I've had physical connections with women and emotional connections, but never both at the same time. That bothers me greatly.
I'm 26, but I've never had a real romantic relationship. A lot of that is my fault. I've had a few women in my life who were interested in me and my failings as a human being led to the collapse of those relationships. I don't like that. I want to be with someone. I want to be in a relationship and be happy. All my friends say that being in a relationship won't make me happy, and that's probably true but it can't be any worse than the loneliness that is being single.
That's why I asked this woman to be my girlfriend. She just seemed interested. Most women aren't interested in me. Now, I know that most likely she's not really into me, or at least not nearly as much as she claims to be, and that starting a relationship so quickly is a recipe for disaster, but I can't say that I really care. I'm lonely and talking to her, even just online, does so much to alleviate my loneliness and sadness. I really feel almost happy when I'm with her.
Anyway, I'm starting to have doubts about her. I logged onto the dating site where we met to cancel the auto renewal on my VIP membership and I saw that she had logged in just the day before. Now, it's possible that she's using the site just to make friends, but I find that a little bit doubtful and the really damning thing about this is that she had told me previously that she had stopped using that site. So that's at least one thing that she's lied to me about.
I guess I can't blame her for trying to find other guys. We've only known each other for about two months and haven't even had sex yet. But, I just don't see why she would agree to be my gf and then continue to search for other men. Why would she come onto my so strongly and then just look for someone else behind my back. That doesn't make sense to me. I know I'm not a great catch or anything, so I don't expect for women to value me or have any interest in the idea of being with me, but I don't expect for them to lie about being interested in me. I don't expect for them to exaggerate their desire to be with me. That just comes off as cruel to me.
Anyway, regardless of what happens, at least I've had a good three weeks of being kinda-sorta happy. Maybe for someone like me that's the best I can hope for.
