Well, I'm still in the same funk. Everytime I exhale I feel a part of me fading away. Feelings I cant explain, feelings I don't understand. My body / mind are sending me messages that I can't figure out. At times I have trouble controlling my breathing, heart starts racing, thoughts get scrambled, cant hold out my hand without it shaking. I need to get a grip on things.
Why am I posting this? I have no idea... Am I looking for help, advice? No, I think I'm just using this as a way to relieve some pressure. In some way sitting here typing this will give me a path back to where I was.
A very special person spent hours talking to me yesterday. Time they could have used doing other things but spent it with me. Time that took my mind to another place and happier thoughts. A person that knows more about me than most. A person that I can trust with my thoughts. I can't say enough about them.
Well, its another day and I will put my face on to deal with the world.
Bye for now....
Why am I posting this? I have no idea... Am I looking for help, advice? No, I think I'm just using this as a way to relieve some pressure. In some way sitting here typing this will give me a path back to where I was.
A very special person spent hours talking to me yesterday. Time they could have used doing other things but spent it with me. Time that took my mind to another place and happier thoughts. A person that knows more about me than most. A person that I can trust with my thoughts. I can't say enough about them.
Well, its another day and I will put my face on to deal with the world.
Bye for now....