..feeling like shit today, me and my bf aka blue eyes, are on a 'break' ive been loyal and trying to make it work bc seriously this guy is amazing. but i don't really see a future with him. i can't see it. and i guess i know how my last ex felt with me, when he said he just couldn't see a future with me. it sucks hard core.
i feel being single so long has turned me into something i don't like.
i just want to play around now, get attention from several ppl at once without the commitment thing.
but at the same time i want this other guy aka green eyes. i want to try something with him.
so this morn after waking up with all these confusing emotions and gazing at my bf who spent the night with me, and who looked like an innocent adorable baby. my heart was crushed.
bc i realized i was just in the moment with him bc he gave me all the attention i wanted, was sweet and adorable. but not who i wanted.
even if it made me a horrible bitch, i told him how i felt. upsetting him almost made me cry.
but honestly early on keeps it from becoming a tragic ending
and as i texted green eyes, he didn't even give me much hope we could be something. so as i let go blue eyes and longing for green. i became one of those ppl who wants their cake and to eat it too
--daily confusion
i feel being single so long has turned me into something i don't like.
i just want to play around now, get attention from several ppl at once without the commitment thing.
but at the same time i want this other guy aka green eyes. i want to try something with him.
so this morn after waking up with all these confusing emotions and gazing at my bf who spent the night with me, and who looked like an innocent adorable baby. my heart was crushed.
bc i realized i was just in the moment with him bc he gave me all the attention i wanted, was sweet and adorable. but not who i wanted.
even if it made me a horrible bitch, i told him how i felt. upsetting him almost made me cry.
but honestly early on keeps it from becoming a tragic ending
and as i texted green eyes, he didn't even give me much hope we could be something. so as i let go blue eyes and longing for green. i became one of those ppl who wants their cake and to eat it too
--daily confusion