Trouble

So, I went into this online-relationship after spending a few years away from such things. Recently he came to me with this:

"Before I met you, I was seriously thinking about suicide."

That's the biggest red flag ever. I can't handle having that burden placed on me and it feels like I have to walk on eggshells. Sure it's easy to say "You need to get away from him!" but I simply can't cut off contact. I'm afraid of what he'll do to himself, should I even mention a break-up.

I did tell him that what he said makes me feel I have quite a heavy load to deal with but he didn't quite take it the way I had hoped. He, instead, insisted I shouldn't feel that way and changed the subject.

The relationship has only about 1.5 month's life and by the end of week 1 he was saying "I love you". I am not without fault here, either. At first I told him it's too early to talk like that. By the end of the first month, I simply started replying with "I love you too" whenever he said "I love you.". I never say it inititally, only as a responce.. but it's still so very wrong to do so. I let my own guilt, in not reciprocating his feelings, get the better of me.

Before this, I had been avoiding online relationships since the first one I had, in which I was cheated on. So, in the time between that relationship and this, I've had only one other relationship... and it too was online. There was also 1 date and 1 time fooling around with a guy in that time period. So, I'm in no way equipped to handle the trouble I've gotten into.

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I was involved with a couple of guys who talked suicide. After several months of being manipulated by each, I managed to escape their influence, which was seriously affecting my well-being. They aren't worth it, get out now, and don't feel guilty; they are responsible for their own well-being as well.
 
There's a reason I quit online relationships altogether, beyond sexual, webcam-using relationships. Nothing ever really comes from it, and it sounds like you just stepped in pretty deep shit. I'd say you should do what you can to get the hell out of there.
 

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