Ugh some guys

~Yet another blog of my random thoughts~
(Also fair warning, this blog is pretty damn pessimistic.)

I am not generally the kind of person who finds herself going after someone whom they are attracted to. I generally let them approach me and let them make the moves. I show them that I am interested as well but I don't chase after them, especially if things go downhill. On the few occasions where I have been interested in someone enough that I will try to initiate things and even go after them when things go badly these guys turn out to not be what I was hoping for.

I am wondering why is it that I seem to always disappoint myself by doing this. I find I am much happier when I dont let myself become invested in someone, because as far as my experience goes I always get let down when I "go for it". Some of the guys seem to lose interest when I show them I like them in return (then a few weeks later are interested again). Others I find are not the one girl kind of guys, and then some just begin to act plain "crazy" after a while of us talking or dating.

A couple of the guys I have had this issue with in the past were "hooking" up with girls on weekends while we were talking. Their excuse was that is was just sex and meant nothing, that we had not specified being exclusive etc etc. I know that to many people sex isn't a big deal. I will admit the idea of sleeping with a random stranger is an exciting one, and the casual playing around i'm sure is fun. However for someone like me who hasn't ventured out very far into the sexual world, sex is a big deal. I don't care if they flirt and what not with others while we are in this stage but the act of sex is a no for me.

It just sucks because while there are many people who I am physically attracted to, there are not many that I find myself connecting with. I really hate either losing that connection or having to let it go because of various reasons.

TLDR? ( too long didnt read) I am through with men ....I am now a lesbian -.-

Comments

Lol. You're only a lesbian if you are more attracted to women than men, and that is not a reactionary issue. You've given up on men due to frustration and a lack of finding a decent connection, but a lesbian you are not. Sexual behavior does not define sexual preference, innate biological processes do.

So while no guy has met your expectations, you are most likely a mostly straight bisexual woman who has given up on ever finding a male partner that is worthwhile.

It's like if I said, "No girl will date me in the long term. They're all not for me, even though I like women so much and am so attracted to them. I can't understand or control them." *shrugs* I'm through...

I found a young boy that looks pretty feminine and I've been tapping that ass 24/7.... It's so much easier. So I'm through with all you worthless women. I'm gay.

Lol.

http://www.lpsg.com/members/toobigforyousugar/albums/hanging/761211-lesbian-meme-for-post.jpg
 
Sweetie, I was celibate for almost two years because I found myself in the exact same situation you're in. I was a divorced single mom who just couldn't find the right guy. Unlike you I did approach men that attracted me, and I had some followers as well. But something about each one's personality or habits or their view of life was just too heavy to try to make things work.

I never even gave a single thought about being a lesbian, but I knew that I was giving up on sex. And I'm a very sexual person, but I just thought it was me and my Hitachi for the rest of my life.

It's when you stop looking that things sneak up on you, and that's what happened to me. I put away my shopping list, gave up on finding a soulmate and disposed of all of my expectations. The man that walked into my life and complete turned it upside down would have never passed my litmus test for life partners.

Thanks heavens for that because I've learned that what I wanted was so superficial and silly that if I had found the guy that hit all those buttons my life would be very boring.

Smooches,

Ellie
 
Relationships can all be difficult. And, communication can be difficult too.

Think about all your friends and your family. AND----I am just talking friends and family. We can be angry, resentfull, bicker, envious---but still be friends and love each other forever.

But, then add the layer of what is going when you meet a partner (or possible partner) all hell can break loose with emotions.
 
The becoming lesbian was more of a joke with me being overly dramatic. I am not a lesbian and although I could sleep with a woman I don't think I could date one. Having a gay brother I am a firm believer that people are born with their sexual preference. It was more me trying to lighten up my obscure post.
 
I cant believe you just turn lesbian for a few lousy guys.. You are just looking in the wrong places. Stop looking, let them come to you. Just be out there and available for a good time. It's easier said than done. Have your fun, the right guy will come along.
 
The right guy will be like one of those angels on Dr Who. He'll sneak up on you when you aren't looking.
 
Maybe you are looking in the wrong place for the right guy.... I don't think it is bad to wnt them not to be having sex wht other people while determining if your relationship is going anywhere. I mean you can date a few at a time if you are dating for a purpose to develop a relationship. BUt if you are just playng the field... you a jiggolo
 

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