No longer sure if I can actually suck as long and good as I used to. It's been a while since I've been able to grab a guy and suck his dick for the enjoyment of it. I'm not sure if I still have it in me. When I think about doing it, it seems like it will just be a big waste of my time. Maybe it's because I jerk off constantly like 3 times a day. My hand has been more satisfying to me than anything else, as of now. Solitude feels eternal.