what will never be

Why am I attracted to her? She is definitely cute, but nothing totally special. But even that last sentence was hard to write because of the considerable attraction I have for this woman. Possibly her eyes, but not sure even what color they are. Her long brown hair is very pretty. And she does have quite the hot ass. Maybe it was her smile. It was sincere. And that look she gave me as we stood on opposite side of the circle of conversation. It could all be in my head, but I like to think that it was me invoking that look of lust in her eyes, making her bite her bottom lip, smiling with a sexy grin. I just don’t understand. She has been in my head for two days, and I couldn’t resist just being around her that night. Sliding across the room to the bar where she sat just to be closer to her. I’m glad I had had a couple drinks to give me the courage to strike up a conversation. And it’s not the typical lust that I have for sex. I want to be with her. I want to talk to her. I want to spend time with her. I want to stare into her eyes and have her look at me like the look she is giving me in that picture. So sexy. I want to hold her hand. I don’t think I ever touched her. I may have put my arm around her. I know I stood beside her barstool as we looked at pictures she had taken throughout the night. I wish I had drunk a little less so that I would remember more of our conversation. I don’t think I even said goodbye. I will probably never see her again, and that would be best. She is married, she has a beautiful daughter. She showed me a picture of her on her camera. I am married, and I love my wife. I would never want to destroy what we have.

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I feel the same for a girl, ive know about her for a long time, but until a friend convinced me to talk to her, i did, and well we have talk a little, i dnt know if im in love with her, but she does make me feel "something" when im talking to her
 
It’s just a feeling I’ve never had. I’m really at a loss for an explanation of these feelings. I’m sure the intoxication of both of us had to do with the entire encounter, but why is she sticking in my mind like this?
 
Once when i saw this girl (her family has a ice cream family business, so sometimes she sold me the ice cream) she was wearing a cute little jacket, and i could see her abs, and for some reason i felt a different kind of lust, ive never felt that with any other women, it was like a whole body calm warm feeling, then when i talked to her for the first time, that day i had fever, and i felt really bad, but once i was talking to her, i did not feel a thing those minutes, i felt very calm, that day i knew this girl was special to me
 
Yes, these strange, occasional feelings do ensnare, enthrall, and mysify us, don't they? I occasionally have the same experience--but with men. Nonetheless, despite gender differences, they remain the same pan-human emotions.
 

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