affection

Adult autistic here. Grew up fatherless and some abuse was involved sooooo, I internalized both a sadness and an intense longing for sensory-based affection. Preferably from someone bigger. You can imagine how awkward it can be to express this without dudes getting the wrong idea. I'm in therapy...

My question comes as I am currently living in the U.S. and, based on experience, men who are friends (buddies, colleagues, etc.) rarely show affection to each other, especially physical touch. I am comparing it with other cultures where men do hugs a lot, kiss on the cheek, hold hands...