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Ok so my dad and I have never been close. Throughout the years, I have never felt more uncomfortable talking with him about sex. Hell, I'd feel more comfortable talking with my mom about it. My dad has a such a goofy and childish personality, that sometimes I wonder how he has ever had sex. lol I know that before marrying my mom, he's slept around a little bit, and when I was a kid he was so tall and strong, and has gotten weaker and sicker since so it's not like the guy was asexual or anything. But if anyone brings up sex, my dad will just freeze up.
Over my high school years, I would sometimes sense him watching porn, because he would always change the channel, but one time as soon as he left, I'd hit channel back and bust his ass. lol Anyway, one night at the dinner table, my parents were discussing the difference between teens having sex between our generations. They had no idea that all of my friends were having sex, yet many of his friends at his teen age did the same.
Then he told me that I'm not going to really be horny, or a sexual being or have raging hormones until I'm in college. That infuriated me, because I felt like he wasn't seeing me for who I was, and that was someone who is horny all the time. lol But a few times since that statement, while I'm jacking off and really into it and doing kinky shit, my dad will knock at the door, and I always think about just letting him walk in or answering the door naked with a boner. Like I feel like I have to prove to this ass that my hormones are raging just fine right now, and that I'm a man now, because he just doesn't make me feel like I am. And I always chicken out because I think that it is too gross, and I realize that my dad would probably not even realize what I did, or run off and joke about it with my mom, (yes, he's a bastard like that). lol Does that make sense that I want to prove that I have already been what he thinks I'll be much much later? And should I go through with it? I'm not trying to be creepy, but he's giving me a freaking complex.
Over my high school years, I would sometimes sense him watching porn, because he would always change the channel, but one time as soon as he left, I'd hit channel back and bust his ass. lol Anyway, one night at the dinner table, my parents were discussing the difference between teens having sex between our generations. They had no idea that all of my friends were having sex, yet many of his friends at his teen age did the same.
Then he told me that I'm not going to really be horny, or a sexual being or have raging hormones until I'm in college. That infuriated me, because I felt like he wasn't seeing me for who I was, and that was someone who is horny all the time. lol But a few times since that statement, while I'm jacking off and really into it and doing kinky shit, my dad will knock at the door, and I always think about just letting him walk in or answering the door naked with a boner. Like I feel like I have to prove to this ass that my hormones are raging just fine right now, and that I'm a man now, because he just doesn't make me feel like I am. And I always chicken out because I think that it is too gross, and I realize that my dad would probably not even realize what I did, or run off and joke about it with my mom, (yes, he's a bastard like that). lol Does that make sense that I want to prove that I have already been what he thinks I'll be much much later? And should I go through with it? I'm not trying to be creepy, but he's giving me a freaking complex.