Louis thats a good question, but she had no complaints about me, or my size from what she said, or told freinds. It is not really fair, but my attachment issues from my borderline personality makes me attached to anyone who is willing to accept me and who I may be interested in, I totally agree with what you say, except you are normal and I envy your take on life. I need to move into that direction.
Its still weird somewhat talking on here, everyone involved in my social life has no idea about my size or my sexual ideals except my girlfreiind, and the people on here, all my male and female freinds have no idea about my sexual life, so this forum has been a great learning experience. I have a group of tight freinds female and male and none of them really seem to have a clue about anything regarding my sexual life as I am scared of being judged but the medication is slowly helping me open up, but keep in mind being someone with severe anxiety I was afraid to share anything sexual with anyone I met, girls I liked and got close to I would be to uptight and scared to be upfront with them, my anxiety previously prevented me from discussing it as it was a very senstive topic for me. Basically only my gf and people on this forum I have ever discussed sex with.