First off, let's have a disclaimer: this post is exactly what the topic states: it is a rant that stems from frustration and I'm afraid that in the end it may be lacking a point.
Action. To me it has become a euphemism for any kind of physical, sexually charged interaction between people. "Had any action?"
"Was there any action?" "Damn! I got me some action!"
I lack it. Despite my best efforts i never get it. People around me compliment my dancing skills, my fluency of speech, my humor. But I still never get any action. It frustrates me, it confuses my friends.
Aren't these three attributes in my favour? On occasion I've even been accused of being decently good looking!
This becomes all the more frustrating as more and more of my friends start getting action on a more or less regular basis. All because of flukes, almost never because of effort. I know, I've witnessed these social transactions...
Let's take a step back. The same people that say this also say that I go into these social situations (clubs, parties, etc.) with the wrong mindset. I don't know what the "right" mindset is, so I don't really know what to do about that. I try to go into these things as Tabula Rasa, that is to say "Clean Slate". No expectations. I go in to get my dance on, and once upon a time also to get my drink on. I've now sworn off alcohol as I realized that I don't need it for social interactions. Saves me alot of money and headaches.
I keep hearing that "It happens when you least expect it". Well shit, that's really helpful. On the one hand people say "You need to be funny, attractive, smooth, fit" etc. On the other hand they're basically saying that "It happens by itself". What in the ass of a flying camel?
So I'm supposed to have a bunch of positive attributes and then stand around in, what is hopefully, The Right Place at The Right Time?
I've sworn off alcohol, and I'm thinking of swearing off clubs as well. Nothing. Happens. There. The music is too loud for conversations. Drunk people dance like asshats and don't look where they're going (ouch). The women don't even raise an eyebrow or smile. What's the point of these venues then? I don't know.
I've put alot of effort into trying to get action. At least *I* feel that I've put effort into it. In reality maybe I haven't put enough into it, I just don't know, I'm no expert.
Thing is, I've put alot of effort into it and got nothing in return.
Now I'm thinking of putting zero effort into it. I'll still get the same amount of action as I've gotten before, but I can spend that money, time and effort on other things. Things like... studies, video games and masturbation. Or whatever.
I've pretty much (at least on the surface of my mind) made peace with the fact that I'm going to live a life of involuntary celibacy. Allthough this may be what my friends call "The Wrong Mindset", a whiny and defeatist outlook on life.
Fuck it.
So be it.
Yrs truly
-Zorgolio
Action. To me it has become a euphemism for any kind of physical, sexually charged interaction between people. "Had any action?"
"Was there any action?" "Damn! I got me some action!"
I lack it. Despite my best efforts i never get it. People around me compliment my dancing skills, my fluency of speech, my humor. But I still never get any action. It frustrates me, it confuses my friends.
Aren't these three attributes in my favour? On occasion I've even been accused of being decently good looking!
This becomes all the more frustrating as more and more of my friends start getting action on a more or less regular basis. All because of flukes, almost never because of effort. I know, I've witnessed these social transactions...
Let's take a step back. The same people that say this also say that I go into these social situations (clubs, parties, etc.) with the wrong mindset. I don't know what the "right" mindset is, so I don't really know what to do about that. I try to go into these things as Tabula Rasa, that is to say "Clean Slate". No expectations. I go in to get my dance on, and once upon a time also to get my drink on. I've now sworn off alcohol as I realized that I don't need it for social interactions. Saves me alot of money and headaches.
I keep hearing that "It happens when you least expect it". Well shit, that's really helpful. On the one hand people say "You need to be funny, attractive, smooth, fit" etc. On the other hand they're basically saying that "It happens by itself". What in the ass of a flying camel?
So I'm supposed to have a bunch of positive attributes and then stand around in, what is hopefully, The Right Place at The Right Time?
I've sworn off alcohol, and I'm thinking of swearing off clubs as well. Nothing. Happens. There. The music is too loud for conversations. Drunk people dance like asshats and don't look where they're going (ouch). The women don't even raise an eyebrow or smile. What's the point of these venues then? I don't know.
I've put alot of effort into trying to get action. At least *I* feel that I've put effort into it. In reality maybe I haven't put enough into it, I just don't know, I'm no expert.
Thing is, I've put alot of effort into it and got nothing in return.
Now I'm thinking of putting zero effort into it. I'll still get the same amount of action as I've gotten before, but I can spend that money, time and effort on other things. Things like... studies, video games and masturbation. Or whatever.
I've pretty much (at least on the surface of my mind) made peace with the fact that I'm going to live a life of involuntary celibacy. Allthough this may be what my friends call "The Wrong Mindset", a whiny and defeatist outlook on life.
Fuck it.
So be it.
Yrs truly
-Zorgolio
