I posted this as a blog but I thought it may be a good thread for people to read and learn from my mistakes. In a split second, literally in the time it takes to hit the send button on a text I have lost someone very special to me. Am I at fault? yes. Should they be angry? yes. Was the text a mistake? yes. Did I mean to hurt them? absolutely not. In that moment I no longer have someone in my life that I could talk to, rely on to be there and never judge me. It took many conversations, ups and downs, anger and laughter for us to get to a place where we could talk about anything and it's gone. I tried to explain what happened but complete silence and I guess I understand that. Will we ever speak again? In my heart I wish we would but I also know in my heart we probably won't. I will miss them everyday. I will think of them when I hear a frog, bird or sitting on my bench under the trees. They will be in my spot in the sky where I keep my memories and visit when I need clarity and comfort. Because of my actions I have lost someone that I can never replace. I will always wish them the best and never want any harm to come to them. I will carry this mistake and emptiness which may never go away.