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So I have suffered from depression for the last two years, I was diagnosed with BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) am a gay male and only within the last few years have I developed this to such an extreme level. i haven't ever had a insanely good high self esteem, but this is definitely the bottom of the barrel.
Anyway's to say the least I have a very poor outlook on my physcial self-worth.
Getting to the point- there is a very attractive man that always comes into my work and doesn't really flirt with me, just gives me constant eye contact. Like stares! At the beginning when i could first start feeling him looking at me, i just brushed it off like "no way! Yea right" lol Im imaging it, however at work today one of my co workers says "Oh my god, that guy was totally staring at you and checking you out" verbatim lol
However, my sad, lonely, scared self has no courage to say or do anything about it. He scares the hell out of me, I would never think a guy like that would ever be interested in someone like me. I just shut down when hes around, I wander off, I walk away and I most certainly don't say anything lol
In my younger days I had all kinds of hot guys all over me and didnt think twice about it.....funny, back then in this same situation we would have already went out on a date..
Can anyone relate? at the very least it feels good to vent and get the story out of my head...even if it is on....LPSG lol
Anyway's to say the least I have a very poor outlook on my physcial self-worth.
Getting to the point- there is a very attractive man that always comes into my work and doesn't really flirt with me, just gives me constant eye contact. Like stares! At the beginning when i could first start feeling him looking at me, i just brushed it off like "no way! Yea right" lol Im imaging it, however at work today one of my co workers says "Oh my god, that guy was totally staring at you and checking you out" verbatim lol
However, my sad, lonely, scared self has no courage to say or do anything about it. He scares the hell out of me, I would never think a guy like that would ever be interested in someone like me. I just shut down when hes around, I wander off, I walk away and I most certainly don't say anything lol
In my younger days I had all kinds of hot guys all over me and didnt think twice about it.....funny, back then in this same situation we would have already went out on a date..
Can anyone relate? at the very least it feels good to vent and get the story out of my head...even if it is on....LPSG lol