... that i would like a little help on please On sunday i went out for a christening with my best straight friend. We ended up being the only two left and i invited him back to mine for drinks as you do. After a few drinks he started talking his usual rubbish how he doesnt care that im gay and how im his best friend blah blah. He asked for a hug and said he loves me like he always does except this time he kisses me and i pulled away like woah how drunk are you? Then he does it again ... and i dont know why, because i honestly have no sexual feelings for this guy whatsoever but i kissed back and said as a joke i would have to suck his cock next (i had a sexual r/ship with my other best friend for two years) before long he stood up got his cock out and was like 'go on then'. I told him to put it away and to never think that way about me again. Later i went to bed a lot more under the influence and he got in with me (which isnt unusual all my straight friends share a bed with me, im just a trustworthy guy i guess lol) and i fell asleep. Next thing i wake up to him kissing me, now half asleep i kiss back, i put my hands down his pants and the next thing i know im down there doing what ... well i dont need to spell it out. Then he says me name ... but more as a question than anything ... as in he is shocked to find it was me and i looked up and realised who it was. After me shouting OMG at who it was ... i went and had a ciggarette and went back to bed. Now the following morning i asked him not to tell anyone, for not just my reputation but for his aswell ... and for the fact i was panicking what people would think of me ... no doubt being the gay it would be me that gets the bullying so to speak. Less than 5 hours later all my friends now. And now he keeps inviting me out but i just dont want to see him, i want to avoid him at all costs not just cos he told people but for fear of what it'll do to me lol. I kinda enjoyed it, and ive thought about it ever since and im positive he enjoyed it also but i dunno lol ... it wasnt the first time he had displayed similar feelings towards me ... its like argh what should i do? lol Any advice?