You know...
it's not that I think i'm a bad lover at all. On the contrary. But the penis thing is more like this... I think that I'm not enough of a man (not masculine enough) if I don't have a bigger penis... Somehow I feel like i'm really small.
I mean, i know every man perceives himself slightly (or more) smaller than he actually is. But with me, it's mostly a personality issue, through years of pain and suffering in my life, which evolved into something like= big cock = man enough = no more problems in life....
I know it sounds stupid, and it is, but that just took control over my whole life.. And it's bugging me every day..
Sometimes I am ashamed to remove my boxers in front of my girlfriend because I think it won't look big enough, even when she sometimes sees it and responds with : wow it looks big...
It just won't get in my head, somehow i feel like she's only saying it to make me feel good..
Ah the glory of mental instability, and how such miniscule issues can transform into something so HUGE... no pun intended..