6 Months Later
How do you say goodbye to your oldest, dearest friend?
I'm not so sure.
Mrs. Lex and the kids moved out today. But we'll get back to that.
It's been a long time and today seemed as good a day as any to bring the few that care up to speed.
Happy Holidays
The holidays of 2007 were the best I have had in a long time. Instead of traveling here and there, we decided to stay at home and enjoy each other's company.
For Thanksgiving we had a house full of people. My mom, her BF, Bubba, the kids, Mrs. Lex, her GF Chas, and their friend Alexis. Bubba mostly cooked (with assists from me and Mrs. Lex) and a fun time was had by all. Food was delicious--turkey, ham, cornbread, greens, blondies, mac and cheese, etc. It was nice to have this part of my family together with none of the drama.
For Christmas, the scene repeated itself sans my mom and her BF. For the first time in 10 years, we would stay at home for Christmas and open gifts. The kids got to see their Nani the day after. Christmas was a bit bitter-sweet as I knew it would be the last one with us all living under one roof. Still, it was an amazing time.
For New Year's Eve, Bubba and I were invited over to a former neighbor's where we (and 3 straight couples) toasted in the new year with good food (everyone made a dish), great wine and Wii. Fuck, is the Boogie game HARD!!
Saying GoodBye to Grandma
Just before Christmas I got a call at work that my grandmother (father's mom) was sick and in the hospital. She had been there for a week and no one called me as they assumed my dad would have. Obviously, someone(s) have not been paying attention. Grandma was happy to see me (I rushed there from work) and worked hard on getting home. She spent a few weeks in a rehabilitation facility to gain some strength and was SO excited to go back home (She lived with my aunt). She came home early in January and died 20 minutes after being home. I am sure she simply did not want to go home in either the hospital or the nursing home.
Those who know me know how important my greatgrandmother (maternal) and grandmother (paternal) were to me. They were best friends before my parents met and helped to raise me. When my cousin called me to tell me she was being rushed back to the hospital, I knew she was gone. Sure enough, she was gone before I was 5 minutes down the road.
My dad had left by the time I got there, so I went in the room along with my cousins to see her--truly a surreal site. During the remainder of the week--I endured the many speeches from my aunts and uncles about reaching out to my dad. I knew it would be heavy on everyone's minds as my grandmother had tasked many people with trying to get my dad to "Act right."
We did hug a few times during this sad week and he did mention that he wants to "talk." I am open to talking and hope that he can come around, if only for the sake of his grandkids who are turning into the cutest dancer and soccer player you ever want to see. Time will tell. I know that, should the day come that he is able to meet me halfway, no one will be smiling wider than my greatgrandmother and grandma. I am sure they are in the next plane just talking and laughing and shining down on me and mine, even now.
The Day After
It's been two days since I buried grandma and now I bury something else: some of the remnants of my marriage to Mrs. Lex. She got a new job and, with no time off for 6 months, had been planning to move over the King Holiday.
From the beginning, she insisted on moving as we live in the burbs and she is a total city girl. Being from Brooklyn will do that to you! So, over the course of the last 4 months, she has been searching for a house in Balmer. She found one and I really liked the neighborhood. The kids loved the house two--I think they are more excited about all this than are any of the adults. They see it as more stuff--two sets of bedrooms, two homes, etc. I am glad kids have such joy in the wake of what can be so sad for the adults involved.
Mrs. Lex (I need to think of a new moniker, don't I?) had been slowly moving things here and there, but now it was time for the big haul. Bubba and I made 2 trips with my SUV packed to the hilt and we all made the final trek just about an hour ago. So weird to look around my house and see things gone and hear no kid noise--I am not sure I am going to get used to that.
So, after the last boxes were brought into the house, I hugged both kids. and she hugged Bubba. Then she looked and me and we both started bawling.
And that is when I thought: How do you say goodbye to your oldest, dearest friend?
I wasn't sure. So I didn't.
I just hugged her as hard as I could and told her "I love you. Thanks for being my friend" and cried all the way home.
She told me she loved me too.
I have known her since the day we both started college at age 17. She is the most amazing person and friend anyone could ever have. I do not know what tomorrow will bring, but this I know to be true: My life is better for having met, known and married her. She helped me find myself, as amazing, fulfilling and painful as it has sometimes been.
I wish everyone I knew got to meet her. Then they would know what selflessness was really all about. I'll miss her constant happy demeanor and her critical eye. But mostly, I'll miss one of the best friends I have ever had.