I don't know why. Almost everything. Being touched makes me nervous, I have a hard time hugging my own mother. When someone touches me my stomach rolls over and I feel shaky and like I wanna vomit. I just got finished talking to my mother: she told me she loved my and she believes in me, and she told me a lot of other things any normal child would wanna hear. Then entire time it was going on I just felt uncomfortable and after she left I just felt hollow and depressed. Whether it's a loving encounter or one filled with rage or fright, I always have the same emotional response. It makes life really confusing.