I spend most of my time thinking about sucking cock and getting fucked
The forbidden fruit.
Try all the fruit in the produce isle. When they are no longer exciting because they are new, or something forbidden - then you will be able to know which you like simply for what they are.
Like the fruit metaphor, try all things sexual with men & women & only then will you know what you "are". Some people simply know. You asked others to tell you, you are looking externally for your answer. So, go to others, live life, experience it & figure yourself out. But don't mislead anyone along your journey! In the end, you'll probably find you are fluid moving up & down
the <--gay---------straight--> scale as so many do in life. Enjoy your journey, pleasure others, be safe.