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I’ve always had an…’attraction’ to males. My reason for phrasing it like that is because, Well… Let me just write it as best I know how - from the heart. I’ve always had an ‘attraction’ to males. It was a small, and rigorous attraction;however, it still classified as an attraction. Even though that attraction was very little, it was more dominant than most I’d feel to females. I myself am a male in his mid twenties and have felt this way for as long as I can remember. From an aesthetic point of view, I can find myself attracted to a select few of men. The criteria is a very ‘wheat from the chaff’ cherry picking competition. They must A - be extremeeeelyyy attractive. Two - the bottoms have to match the tops. Meaning: They must pass the Schlong test which the color, size, and the girth of the penis must match whom the penis is attached to. I must say that EVERY single minute detail pens as a part of the criteria checklist of what makes my little soldier wanna stand up. Although even after I sort out my feelings of attraction, I contemplate of any lustful scenarios I could see myself in. Fantasizing at my dream scenario partner, I would question where exactly there hands would touch me. Would it be a non-passionate or a passionate affair? The setting, quora, relationship of participants- All of that crosses my mind. You’d think: ‘If you have to question it that much then you must really be into it.’ But thats the thing, I don’t think I can actually really DO any of that. I could never see me being/want being in any relationship with any said man. It’s safe to say that: I have NO romantic interest towards ANY person of my gender. It’s safe to say that: Those feelings are concrete. I’ve even tried to solidify my hypothesis by safely exploring my sexuality(with a few guys, of course). I kissed some. I felt nothing. Did a little over the cover stuff and…NOTHING. Felt nothing when holding their hands. Felt nothing when I looked into their eyes. Felt nothing when they - quote;unquote - gave me head, nor when they sucked my nipples. I’ve realized that I’m desensitized to touch to some extent, and that plays a part;but, I’m confused on where my feelings of lust stem from. Ya know? What gets my ‘engine revving’? I’ve deduced that I am leaning a little more to Androsexual(I say Androsexual because I feel I’m attracted to masculine energy more than the conventional relations of same sex individuals);that I am aromantic;and, that I am asexual.
I’ve always had an…’attraction’ to males. My reason for phrasing it like that is because, Well… Let me just write it as best I know how - from the heart. I’ve always had an ‘attraction’ to males. It was a small, and rigorous attraction;however, it still classified as an attraction. Even though that attraction was very little, it was more dominant than most I’d feel to females. I myself am a male in his mid twenties and have felt this way for as long as I can remember. From an aesthetic point of view, I can find myself attracted to a select few of men. The criteria is a very ‘wheat from the chaff’ cherry picking competition. They must A - be extremeeeelyyy attractive. Two - the bottoms have to match the tops. Meaning: They must pass the Schlong test which the color, size, and the girth of the penis must match whom the penis is attached to. I must say that EVERY single minute detail pens as a part of the criteria checklist of what makes my little soldier wanna stand up. Although even after I sort out my feelings of attraction, I contemplate of any lustful scenarios I could see myself in. Fantasizing at my dream scenario partner, I would question where exactly there hands would touch me. Would it be a non-passionate or a passionate affair? The setting, quora, relationship of participants- All of that crosses my mind. You’d think: ‘If you have to question it that much then you must really be into it.’ But thats the thing, I don’t think I can actually really DO any of that. I could never see me being/want being in any relationship with any said man. It’s safe to say that: I have NO romantic interest towards ANY person of my gender. It’s safe to say that: Those feelings are concrete. I’ve even tried to solidify my hypothesis by safely exploring my sexuality(with a few guys, of course). I kissed some. I felt nothing. Did a little over the cover stuff and…NOTHING. Felt nothing when holding their hands. Felt nothing when I looked into their eyes. Felt nothing when they - quote;unquote - gave me head, nor when they sucked my nipples. I’ve realized that I’m desensitized to touch to some extent, and that plays a part;but, I’m confused on where my feelings of lust stem from. Ya know? What gets my ‘engine revving’? I’ve deduced that I am leaning a little more to Androsexual(I say Androsexual because I feel I’m attracted to masculine energy more than the conventional relations of same sex individuals);that I am aromantic;and, that I am asexual.