I have written about this before, but here is the whole story.... I have always thought of myself as a mainly heterosexual male, but all of this changed about 4 years ago when I met a bi European man through a chat line. We corresponded-got to know each other well- and a relationship blossomed. A few months later, we realised that we had feelings for each other. One day I asked him if we could meet in Europe; he said yes- he was very enthusiastic about it all. Needless to say we had a ball. Although he was quite busy, he found the time to see me at my hotel; I was thrilled to see him and told him so. Needless to say we had a ball. All of this changed a few months after my trip to Europe. He told me that he was changing jobs and would be busier than any other time in his life. He also told me that he would always be there for me, but 'we couldn't be as close as we once were'. I accepted the situation reluctantly, but told him that we could still write or call each other. He agreed. Earlier this year, he was sent to the US on business, and invited me to spend some time with him- I said yes. So what is my problem? At certain times of the year he is extremely busy and I don't hear a word from him for weeks on end. His 'disappearances' as he calls it drive me crazy. He did it to me last year, and I went into a depression (no, it wasn't the winter blues!, which lasted 3 or 4 months. Fortunately, I sought professional help. It is his busy time of year again, and I have heard little of him. To make matters worse, I'm in his hometown on business, and I haven't heard or seen him since I arrived- he had emailed me the day I left to wish me a good trip, and to say that he'd only be away for a few days.... What am I to do? :shrug: I love this guy. :loveya: I think about him all the time. I miss him terribly (have told him so), I ache for him. He means the world to me. He has never given me reason to doubt him. So why am I feeling this way? What have I done wrong? What have I done to deserve this? I am terribly confused. Please help. ;( :argh: :shrug: Titan1968 P.S.: Excuse me for such a long post.