I'm a humble guy, I understand that the big picture dictates that I know nothing at all. I understand that my contribution to society is minimal and that in 200 years I will be entirely forgotten. There are a million people out there whose feet I am not worthy to kiss. I rise above stupidity pretty much 100% of the time, I'm calm, I'm friendly, I'm an adult and I know better. So why doesn't it stop the fantasies of brutally teaching these dumb pricks a lesson? Why does it feel worse knowing that I'm physically more than capable of doing so? For the place I grew up I'm almost a rarity, I'd rather think than use my fists. I know I'm better than most of the kids I went to school with. I stayed away from drugs, I stayed away from violence and crime. I didn't have a kid with a one night stand when I was 15. I treat people with respect and I hold down a steady job and bring in more money than my minimal qualifications would suggest I could. My one liners are usually funny, I'm quiet but confident, I'm no Brad Pitt and I could lose some weight but I know I'm attractive. Infact sometimes I'm convinced that every girl that passes is eyeing me up. In short, I like myself. So why do I feel my opinion means less than anyone else's? Why do I have those moments of feeling like I'm the centre of attention and loving it yet a matter of days later feel like I'm a complete dick? Why can't I just find a happy middle ground? Will I find it with age? Do other people my age feel the same? Is it natural that I don't feel I've acheived anything even when other people say I should be proud? Is it bad that sometimes I look down on these people for not seeing how insignificant I really am? Why do I feel angry that people are so quick to congratulate me for what amounts to nothing more than big-fish-in-small-pond accomplishments? Do I have a superiority complex, an inferiority complex, neither or both?