OK so here's my dilema....a longtime friend, whom I have been sexually attracted to for many years, is living at my home, again. Seems he can't stay out of prison and each time I fall for his bs and let him come stay with me. Each time it ends in a disaster. Why do I do it? Because he pleads with me in his letters and tells me he loves me and can't wait to be with me in 'our' bed and goes into details on what he wants to do to me and have me do to him. This last go 'round with the letter wrting was for some 8 years while he was locked up. Now he's out and we slept together for the first week he was out and had some sexual contact on three occassions. Now all of a sudden he claims to have no sex drive and needs a testosterone builder. So we went that route and still nothing. At least not with me! I suspect he is hooking up outside with someone. And he has a ton of sex sites on the web as well as sexting on the phone and stays on both late into the night. This is the second time with this situation. Same thing the last time he was locked up. Same erotic letters for several years. And then when he's here, the no sex drive bs. He does identify as 'str8 and only claims the bi thing with me only. Am I being used???