Okay apologises if this seems stupid and pointless but i just got to get this out. I have this "thing" for someone. At work. The reason this is out of note that had been years since its beeb to this level. Don't get me wrong I have had smaller crushes on other people- but its gotten to the point that I am so used to it being a pointless endeavour (im not exactly appealing to people lool) that i can have it under control and squashed rather quickly. Not this however I am being awkward and dopey like when i was in school and even though its as pointless as the rest i just want to tell because " there are about 7 billion people in the world and you are one of the few that make mine stop"- my brain (2018) you see! So unhelpful and im on dating things to try and find someone who may actually be interested but its not helping yet. Tell me the best way to squash this before i say something stupid haha since my ability to squash has left me