Well, folks, about 3 months ago I wrote a nice little "goodbye" in meet and greet that didn't last long. I still kept lurking and couldn't resist posting, even just once in a while. Since then I've gotten more blatant and bold about my situation at home. My wife decided that lpsg was not good for me. "Too much gay influence." So, to honor her, and show my love for her, I told her I would stay away from here. But I snuck (sneaked?) back because I miss you guys. (Don't give me shit about that last sentence, please. I really am a softie about a lot of you, and admire many of you.)
I have been married 13 months to a former model. She truly is drop dead gorgeous, and we are in our late 40s, and are grandparents. No one, and I do mean NO ONE can believe it. It's like this big "NO WAY! You are WAY too young for that!" and so it goes. It's a nice ego boost, but believe me reality sets in fast. My wife is erotic and thinks I have the body of Adonis. (I don't. But it's not bad, I guess, but I'm a little disgusted with my lack of eating right and working out lately.) I was sure she was the love of my life. She is beautiful, artistic, charismatic, incredible on camera, and has done local TV work.
She also has a long list of autoimmune diseases. We have been in ER 15 times in one year. Four extended hospital stays. She has a son who is a drunk and lives at home. There are other kid problems. My ex kicked my two kids out of her house, and Mrs. Beautiful (my wife) won't hardly allow them in the door. We are maxed financially with astronomical medical bills.
So Monday I pulled the plug for the second time. It feels awful to be doing this a second time, but I have to say, I'm celebrating with friends that such a HUGE ton of stress has been lifted from me. Now of course her kids and family are mortified that I have been so evil and I have been banned from my home, and am living with friends. I think I can handle it.
On top of this, I made a trip out of state to see my dad, who is dying. I kissed him goodbye Sunday afternoon, drove home, argued with Mrs. Beautiful till the wee hours, and announced I am divorcing her on Monday at our counseling session. So I'm kinda waiting to hear when my dad's funeral is and am filling out divorce papers.
My two kids are excited that we can be a family again, and are looking forward to living with me for a few months.
Look, folks, I'm not really looking for sympathy or advice or anything. But I do feel a kinship to many of you here, and I feel like you are friends, and this is something I would want to tell you if I saw you.
I also wanted you to know I'm back without the fear of being "found out." This is a great place with some really amazing people, some total losers, a few wierdos, and the other etceteras. I don't know where I fit in, but I don't really care, either. I think most of you have some very wonderful things to offer all of us, and I'm glad I get to be a part of it, if only reading bits and pieces.
So I am in high drama, and am at last LEVEL! My bipolar swings have minimized because my relief and stress have been so greatly reduced. I made my announcement while I was completely level, and even the counselor saw how level I was while my wife ranted about me being nuts again.
I'm doing FINE. Life is getting BETTER.
I may even be tempted to post some pics after a while, when things calm down. That should disappoint most of you since I chose such a cocky screen name!!!
Smiles to all.
Thanks friends.
Dan
I have been married 13 months to a former model. She truly is drop dead gorgeous, and we are in our late 40s, and are grandparents. No one, and I do mean NO ONE can believe it. It's like this big "NO WAY! You are WAY too young for that!" and so it goes. It's a nice ego boost, but believe me reality sets in fast. My wife is erotic and thinks I have the body of Adonis. (I don't. But it's not bad, I guess, but I'm a little disgusted with my lack of eating right and working out lately.) I was sure she was the love of my life. She is beautiful, artistic, charismatic, incredible on camera, and has done local TV work.
She also has a long list of autoimmune diseases. We have been in ER 15 times in one year. Four extended hospital stays. She has a son who is a drunk and lives at home. There are other kid problems. My ex kicked my two kids out of her house, and Mrs. Beautiful (my wife) won't hardly allow them in the door. We are maxed financially with astronomical medical bills.
So Monday I pulled the plug for the second time. It feels awful to be doing this a second time, but I have to say, I'm celebrating with friends that such a HUGE ton of stress has been lifted from me. Now of course her kids and family are mortified that I have been so evil and I have been banned from my home, and am living with friends. I think I can handle it.
On top of this, I made a trip out of state to see my dad, who is dying. I kissed him goodbye Sunday afternoon, drove home, argued with Mrs. Beautiful till the wee hours, and announced I am divorcing her on Monday at our counseling session. So I'm kinda waiting to hear when my dad's funeral is and am filling out divorce papers.
My two kids are excited that we can be a family again, and are looking forward to living with me for a few months.
Look, folks, I'm not really looking for sympathy or advice or anything. But I do feel a kinship to many of you here, and I feel like you are friends, and this is something I would want to tell you if I saw you.
I also wanted you to know I'm back without the fear of being "found out." This is a great place with some really amazing people, some total losers, a few wierdos, and the other etceteras. I don't know where I fit in, but I don't really care, either. I think most of you have some very wonderful things to offer all of us, and I'm glad I get to be a part of it, if only reading bits and pieces.
So I am in high drama, and am at last LEVEL! My bipolar swings have minimized because my relief and stress have been so greatly reduced. I made my announcement while I was completely level, and even the counselor saw how level I was while my wife ranted about me being nuts again.
I'm doing FINE. Life is getting BETTER.
I may even be tempted to post some pics after a while, when things calm down. That should disappoint most of you since I chose such a cocky screen name!!!
Smiles to all.
Thanks friends.
Dan