Hey dude I know how you feel, I didn't have a father figure in my life when I was growing up too. I know it was kind of hard for my mother because she tried her best to raise me right and she did. My father was never at home he was always in the streets not supporting and being there for his children. But I can say that I wouldn't have been the cool and unique person I am today, lol, If I didn't experience the things I did as a child which made me mature faster than other kids. Now at 23 yrs old I can say that, when I have children one day I will be there for them, Because all children need that good father authority in life.