ANOTHER STRAIGHT GUY'S STORY
In my late teens and early 20s, I dated girls/women and enjoyed being affectionate and flirtatious with them. Every now and then, I'd get lucky and hit a home run. I was down with oral or intercourse. I liked it all!
The idea of me not being "normal" (straight) never crossed my mind until I was 25 and had the admiration thing going on with my best friend. He was an accomplished athlete - 6'4" with a chisled body like the Statue of David. We had crazy chemistry and became inseparable friends. He was my coach and got me into the gym and running. I was in great physical condition within a few months. We pushed each other hard and got really buffed out. There was a strong magnetism between us. A year later, we crossed the line and were full on physical. We never kissed, but we loved eachother intensely and had unreal sex. I would fuck him, get off, and then flip him over and finish him orally. We both continued to date women, yet had a great relationship for 6 years. Over time, I stopped dating and wanted just him; he wanted kids. Ultimately, he got married so we went back to being friends. We're still friends today.
I've found that I'm a difficult guy to define. All of my guy friends are straight and married. I don't really fit in with the gay crowd socially and find myself being drawn to athletic, butch straight guys all the time. I have several wonderful women friends, but I wouldn't want to be in a romantic relationship with them. I'd like a guy for a partner - no question about it. That's why when I joined LPSG, I chose 100% gay.
Yes, I have thought about it. That's why I say I am 100% straight, because when I did think about it, it didn't appeal to me at all. Who was it? no one in particular, really. I just thought about what would it be like to fool around with another male.
As a guy who considers himself straight (I date only girls, have sexual relations only with girls), I am not opposed to some "gay" activities. Personally when masturbating I have in the past had something small in my ass stimulating my prostate. I would never do this when I was with a girl but alone its fine to experiment sometimes.
Also, I really enjoy masturbating with other guys. Call it high-schoolish (I'm only a sophomore in college) but some of the best orgasms I've had while jerking off were when my buds and I were all watching porn with our meats in our hands. Note: we never touched each other, but our dicks were definitely out in the open and it was very sexual in nature. Also as a side note, when watching porn, I find the bigger the tool on the guy, the more I am turned on by the porno because the girl is enjoying it more.
Just my two cents.
What did you actually think about doing?
The first time I had real erotic feelings about a guy was just after high school. It was triggered when I saw a friend of mine taking a shower. He was a little guy (maybe 5'5 or 5'6, 125 lbs.) and he had a really big dick. I was shocked. I knew him all through high school, but never knew that part about him. I swear that I wanted to drop trou right there, whip mine out and "size-up". I knew mine was definitely bigger, but he was a worthy contender. The fantasy was about me and him tag-teaming a girl together.
It was in college when I first acted on my guy/guy feelings with my roommate. It started with the usual watching porn together, but then it evolved. The whole thing was a kick in the head for me. I never thought I would feel that strongly or enjoy the sex so much with another guy. But it was an awesome and powerful experience.