Ok.. this is a long story so I will stick to the key points. I met a guy online and we were going to meet last night. Something came up and I cancelled. Today we were exchanging texts and he wanted to meet me during his lunch break. I go to him, we walk together and end up in a public park. He kisses me as soon as he can (which I was ok with) but was very specific about what he wanted 'put your arm there, move your leg that way, lie on my chest, turn your head a little'. He then proceeded to tell me about all the other girls he has met and had nsa relationships with. 'This one was mental, another one moved away etc'. He has basically met up with a lot of women.... he may have been bragging and so made it up, or it may have been genuine. He extended his lunch break to spend more time with me and asked if he could see me tomorrow night. When it was time for me to leave he was reluctant to let me go and wanted to do a lot more kissing (not something I do to that degree in public). Then he let me go and I left. Overall I find some aspects of the experience exciting and adventurous but I really don't think this kind of thing is for me. This was the first time I have ever done anything like that. I am now questionning my morality, how much I value and respect myself and basically what the hell was I thinking! Am I abnormal? I've had 2 major relationships, a few mistakes (but people I knew) and thats it... I've never been with someone I didn't love or care very much about. I have come out of a relationship where I was starting to feel suffocated and desperately want to enjoy my freedom. Am I going about it all the wrong way? The fact that I am even asking shows my own confusion and the fact that I already believe I am on the wrong road completely.... where do I go from here?