H8Monga: I would like to extend an apology to everyone here at LPSG for causing a hostile atmosphere. I apologize for anything I've said that has been hurtful or considered threatening.
Contrary to what some of you believe, I did not come here to cause a stir. I wanted to be inconspicuous but as I returned and read some of the post, I had to add my point of view from what I have seen and experienced. True, I have made generalizations and sought to burst some egos. I have stated I have nothing against hung guys in general. I do wish to be one of you but it's not meant to be as it's not meant for me to have blue eyes (not that I wanted blue eyes, but to make a point).
I have read that some of you think I post as much as I do that I have an agenda to take over as well. Although it'd be nice to be #1, that is not the reason for my many postings. It's just what I'm used to doing at forums. We get along very well there and each post sparks a discussion and sometimes debate. I see no problem in that and it is never boring. Sometimes we do get riled up, but it's resolved and we're still friends. I see this is a different place and you do not seem to want that so I'll have to adapt.
To those of you who have offered help and advice, I thank you. Believe it or not you have helped in many ways. It may not show as you may like, but it is a long process just as how I became as insecure as I am. I thank those who have told me it's me who matters most. That helps too.
Yes, I can be negative. I've heard it for the last few years. I do not always see the good in some things, this I had an argument tonight with my mother. I really wish I knew how not to zoom in on negative aspects so readily. I don't see the positive in me being "unhung" and nothing has reaffirmed it firmly. However, I have learned it's not as glamorous as I thought to be hung. Although, I still wish I had a little bit more, not a lot. I yearn for the reactions you get and the attention. I have learned a lot here which is a main reason why I come, along with offering my point of view from my experiences, I'm trying to understand, and I like the people and interaction.
I am far from a jerk, If you got to know me, you'll find the rest of me greatly overshadows what you've seen here. I know it's not a great first impression, but I implore you for your forgiveness and a second chance. I am tired of feeling I'm fighting a war since that is not typical of me. I am far from a belligerent person. I am shy and quiet in person, but very fun to be with once I warm up to you.
There are no falsehoods in the above. I have offered the utmost of sincerity of my feelings. The experiences and feelings dealing with myself expressed in my posts are genuine. Some of you may have your minds made up and will not listen. For you I have much to prove. Actions speak louder than words; please grant me the chance to demonstrate.
Once again, I surrender my apology to the forum as a whole and especially to those I have hurt. Please accept my regrets. I have hopes that we can get along and be good friends.
- Hapi Papi
Contrary to what some of you believe, I did not come here to cause a stir. I wanted to be inconspicuous but as I returned and read some of the post, I had to add my point of view from what I have seen and experienced. True, I have made generalizations and sought to burst some egos. I have stated I have nothing against hung guys in general. I do wish to be one of you but it's not meant to be as it's not meant for me to have blue eyes (not that I wanted blue eyes, but to make a point).
I have read that some of you think I post as much as I do that I have an agenda to take over as well. Although it'd be nice to be #1, that is not the reason for my many postings. It's just what I'm used to doing at forums. We get along very well there and each post sparks a discussion and sometimes debate. I see no problem in that and it is never boring. Sometimes we do get riled up, but it's resolved and we're still friends. I see this is a different place and you do not seem to want that so I'll have to adapt.
To those of you who have offered help and advice, I thank you. Believe it or not you have helped in many ways. It may not show as you may like, but it is a long process just as how I became as insecure as I am. I thank those who have told me it's me who matters most. That helps too.
Yes, I can be negative. I've heard it for the last few years. I do not always see the good in some things, this I had an argument tonight with my mother. I really wish I knew how not to zoom in on negative aspects so readily. I don't see the positive in me being "unhung" and nothing has reaffirmed it firmly. However, I have learned it's not as glamorous as I thought to be hung. Although, I still wish I had a little bit more, not a lot. I yearn for the reactions you get and the attention. I have learned a lot here which is a main reason why I come, along with offering my point of view from my experiences, I'm trying to understand, and I like the people and interaction.
I am far from a jerk, If you got to know me, you'll find the rest of me greatly overshadows what you've seen here. I know it's not a great first impression, but I implore you for your forgiveness and a second chance. I am tired of feeling I'm fighting a war since that is not typical of me. I am far from a belligerent person. I am shy and quiet in person, but very fun to be with once I warm up to you.
There are no falsehoods in the above. I have offered the utmost of sincerity of my feelings. The experiences and feelings dealing with myself expressed in my posts are genuine. Some of you may have your minds made up and will not listen. For you I have much to prove. Actions speak louder than words; please grant me the chance to demonstrate.
Once again, I surrender my apology to the forum as a whole and especially to those I have hurt. Please accept my regrets. I have hopes that we can get along and be good friends.
- Hapi Papi
