@Tight_N_Juicy @TinyPrincess @Scarletbegonia..I'm so sorry. I definitely did not mean to offend you by using the wrong noun. Thank you for pointing that out to me. I was engaged, a month before being married I found she was unfaithful on more than one occasion. I spent 10 years with. I wanted to spend my life with her and start a family someday. This shattered my confidence and because of all this I don't think I could handle another heartbreak. I'm at the point now where I really don't even try. I'm lonely, I have a lot of love to give but my heart and soul wouldn't make it through another situation like that.
I've been single three years now and I keep trying to convince myself I'm happier this way but I'm not. I just want to be loved. I just want to be wanted.
I'm sorry for rambling. Don't have an outlet for this stuff.