"It's not worth it". Imagne how that feels. First the "it". Um that refers to me, the person. Am I not worth it? I didn't fucking ask for HIV.
You sound a little bitter. Understandably, up to a point.
But life, and these kinds of conversations ( online / offline ) are a combination of logic, and feelings/values ...
Logically, most people (
maybe including the past versions of you
) would prefer not to have HIV, given the option. That's all they are really saying ...
I've had friends pass away. And some people who were HIV positive in the 1980s are still alive and well. The losses, in the apparently random context of who lives, and who dies, sometimes sadden me.
But, that doesn't mean we should not
value another person, just as highly, whether they are living with HIV or not. I think things have moved on, quite a lot, with treatment, viral load testing, and so on ... but some people's minds are still stuck in the late 1980s. Again, that's nobody's "fault", it's just that people did need better information in public health campaigns back then, and some of it didn't really get updated, in individual people's minds. That's how everything goes - science, culture, religion, politics - we don't always move at the same pace.
But most of us see sense in the end :smile:
We know that a person is a bundle of thoughts and feelings, interests and skills, a grainstore of experiences, and things to enjoy, things to give. It's a state of Grace. And we
know that that applies,
whatever tiny things might be in their blood.