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- 99% Gay, 1% Straight
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This is going to be a long story. I’ve decided to make a thread for closure, advice, and stories from other people. I’m gay and I live in a conservative area in the midwest. If this information tells you anything my school class only has 69 students in it and it’s a farm school. A lot of guys around me wear boots and if they don’t they’re the sporty straight guys. There’s no diversity around me so I have no one to connect with and no similar interests. I’ve been accused of being gay but I always deny it, multiple kids have asked me and a lot just assume. I don’t try to act girly and I don’t dress feminine (but I am interested in clothes and have many compared to my peers). That’s besides the point, I can’t come to terms with myself for being gay. My mother has told me once that if I was gay she would love me no matter what, she’s never been there for me emotionally otherwise. My father has never even discussed the topic, neither of them really talk about it which I’m glad they haven’t. I know it is not wrong to be gay and that I shouldn’t be ashamed, I’ve never even kissed a boy. My mind tells me that I should be straight, I’ve wished to be straight ever since I’ve experienced feelings for guys. I try to like girls sexually but I can’t get hard. I love girls and their personalities but my body just doesn’t cooperate when I try to think of them sexually. I would be completely open to doing anything sexual with a woman but I’m scared that chance would never come. My question is, how do you be comfortable with your sexuality and just generally yourself? I apologize for this post being so long. I felt that I should give backstory in hopes that it might give reason to why I feel like this. If you’ve made it this far or decide to respond I will be very grateful and I appreciate it. Thank you.