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Javierdude22: Eyzz...
I don't really know why I put this topic in this section, seemed appropriate.
How do I start this....ok...I have been in a relationship with a guy, off and on, for the past two years now roughly. It was all great in the beginning, but the engine started hampering about a year ago. Not because anything was out of place, but because he had a problem.
When we started our thing he made it clear to me that he he doesnt really get hard. I figured it was cause he is indeed big (this really being the most unimportant part of the story). He told me however that he had problems with having sex, getting aroused, and that he couldn't remember having been rock hard ever in his life, even jacking. It so turns that after a few weeks of going out he did get rockhard and that he himself was surprised about his...well...appetite....which made him pretty damn happy.
Now things are not so good, for quite some time now....because of other reasons than his (mostly because of my well known, deeprooted issues with being gay). However, he started to confide in me finally what his initial problems was with sex.
It turns out that at the age of 18, he was raped by 4 guys. To get a stereotype image out of everyone's head...this guy is the tv type hip hop kinda streetguy with a bad temper who found out he wasnt into girls very much. We got in touch through our mutual problems with this issue I guess. He had been trying to figure out his feelings regarding the subject back then, and befriended an older guy who played in a Dutch football team. The football guy confessed to being gay and to having feelings for my friend. My friend didnt equally respond to them, and said to want to be friends. Their next friendly meeting however involved rape with 3 of that guys friends.
He is unfortunately the type of guy who will hide stuff, not tell anyone, not accept help...he cannot file this crim because no one knows he is gay and he feels ashamed. He tells me he feels like a monster, and acts like it was his own fault (at 18 then!. He sleeps bad, and ive noticed he shivers in his sleep, with shocking moves (epileptic like) and even outright bursts of energy where he jumps up out of his sleep. This is not every night, but the constant (and I do mean constant) shivers turn up almost every night. He does admit he has many nightmares...and is afraid to sleep...even now after 6 years. He has trouble looking in the mirror, and says he finds himself unattractive...him probably being the most attractive guy I have come to know. I understand these are all caused by the trauma of rape.
I do hope however that someone has advice how to handle this. I am gonna search for psychologists regardless whether he wants to go or not...but in the meantime, I wanna know what I can do. If we talk about the subject a bit too long (15 min.) he wants to stop. What should I do, how often, should I not mention certain things or should I? Links to usefull websites?
Look, i do hope we will somehow get back together....he wants to very much, but feels he is so f-ed up right now that he wouldnt function much in a relationship. He has trouble having sex right now. I could care less about that...but do hope he will see some kind of future. That all being said, I want him to heal first and foremost...even if nothing else would result.
Maybe I surprised a few people with this...but this is turning ugly....so any help is very very welcome.
Laterz
I don't really know why I put this topic in this section, seemed appropriate.
How do I start this....ok...I have been in a relationship with a guy, off and on, for the past two years now roughly. It was all great in the beginning, but the engine started hampering about a year ago. Not because anything was out of place, but because he had a problem.
When we started our thing he made it clear to me that he he doesnt really get hard. I figured it was cause he is indeed big (this really being the most unimportant part of the story). He told me however that he had problems with having sex, getting aroused, and that he couldn't remember having been rock hard ever in his life, even jacking. It so turns that after a few weeks of going out he did get rockhard and that he himself was surprised about his...well...appetite....which made him pretty damn happy.
Now things are not so good, for quite some time now....because of other reasons than his (mostly because of my well known, deeprooted issues with being gay). However, he started to confide in me finally what his initial problems was with sex.
It turns out that at the age of 18, he was raped by 4 guys. To get a stereotype image out of everyone's head...this guy is the tv type hip hop kinda streetguy with a bad temper who found out he wasnt into girls very much. We got in touch through our mutual problems with this issue I guess. He had been trying to figure out his feelings regarding the subject back then, and befriended an older guy who played in a Dutch football team. The football guy confessed to being gay and to having feelings for my friend. My friend didnt equally respond to them, and said to want to be friends. Their next friendly meeting however involved rape with 3 of that guys friends.
He is unfortunately the type of guy who will hide stuff, not tell anyone, not accept help...he cannot file this crim because no one knows he is gay and he feels ashamed. He tells me he feels like a monster, and acts like it was his own fault (at 18 then!. He sleeps bad, and ive noticed he shivers in his sleep, with shocking moves (epileptic like) and even outright bursts of energy where he jumps up out of his sleep. This is not every night, but the constant (and I do mean constant) shivers turn up almost every night. He does admit he has many nightmares...and is afraid to sleep...even now after 6 years. He has trouble looking in the mirror, and says he finds himself unattractive...him probably being the most attractive guy I have come to know. I understand these are all caused by the trauma of rape.
I do hope however that someone has advice how to handle this. I am gonna search for psychologists regardless whether he wants to go or not...but in the meantime, I wanna know what I can do. If we talk about the subject a bit too long (15 min.) he wants to stop. What should I do, how often, should I not mention certain things or should I? Links to usefull websites?
Look, i do hope we will somehow get back together....he wants to very much, but feels he is so f-ed up right now that he wouldnt function much in a relationship. He has trouble having sex right now. I could care less about that...but do hope he will see some kind of future. That all being said, I want him to heal first and foremost...even if nothing else would result.
Maybe I surprised a few people with this...but this is turning ugly....so any help is very very welcome.
Laterz