ok, so im only 18...but i think im bisexual. i dont know fr sure becuz ive never done anything with another guy, but ive always been interested in tasting another guys dick/cum...ive been with alot of girls and done everything except anal....am i really bi?
I don't think that you could be in a better place than where you are right now. GOOD JOB! Being able (and willing) to acknowledge that there are certain attractions to the same sex and to start questioning one's orientation, let alone acknowledge that there is a possibility that one is bi is an exceptional place to start. Much as you may be dealing with confusion or concern right now, let me try to put your mind at ease by saying that you have a very good handle on things.
I don't mean to pry, but why have you opted for the 50% 50% preference? I'm not questioning your choice but trying to establish where you are at right now.
In my opinion and from my own journey, I think that the best thing that you can do for yourself right now is to try to get as much information (solid information) about bisexuality and what it's all about. It would be in your best interests to seek out the ability to draw informed conclusions about what such a confusing reality is all about and to what degree bisexuality rings true in your life.
Let me just say that I never had any sexual contact with a guy but I was able to still draw the conclusion that I am bisexual and that I have an equal attraction to men and women, however, it was a process and some of the answers that I had about myself changed as time and my understanding of bisexuality progressed.
Much as you may be feeling as if you need to have all of the answers right now (and believe me when I say that this feeling is experienced by many bisexuals when they initially question their orientation), there truly isn't any need to rush.
The only other thing that I will add is don't rush into any sexual contact with a guy until you are ready. Rather take your time so that you can ensure that if or should such an experience arise, that afterwards you will be happy and satisfied with how things played out, than for your first swim in the waters to be tarnished with regret or even worse...people can be ruthless at times. I have encountered a lot of bi men who are still trying to get past some really bad (and sometimes traumatic) introductions to m2m sex that took place many years ago.
Doc (Fortiesfun) gave me the best piece of advice when I initially realised that I am bisexual and it's advice that I pass on from time to time:
As soon as you are able to, go the an adult store and buy the strongest condoms that you can find as well as lube....and carry it around with you WHEREVER you may go because you never know what circumstances may arise and with whom...and since two men are involved, once things get steamy it will be too late for you to then go out and ensure that you're protected. (I add: That when one is busy discovering bisexuality, there are many times when the hormones are raging like crazy - almost like a second puberty but waaaay more intense, so rather be safe than sorry).
Be proud of yourself for the first but very important steps that you have already taken. Don't be shy or afraid to ask more questions if and when the need arises. You are not alone - you'd be shocked to see how many of us are or have been in your shoes and how most of your feelings, desires and confusion is
normal because we've all gone through it at some stage of our journey.
All of the very best with your journey towards yourself!