i have a friend for about 13 years. we met at work. our common tastes, mainly related to music, brought us closer since the first day I joined the company. we were listening to metal all day long. this generated a very quick complicity. he recommended me to shows and bands and I also recommended him. except madonna, everything united us. we left that company, we followed different careers but we always see each other to drink or go to a show. 8 years ago he hinted 3 times that he has a monster cock. it has been difficult at times to deal with this information. I should have suspected, he is huge, almost two meters, huge hands, huge feet, thin. today I know that he is a beautiful specimen of a man but the strong friendship never made me see him with different eyes. his subtle lack of maturity and his unquestioning desire for women did not make me fantasize. the first time he mentioned his dowry he said something like screwing a girl. something like "it's great if she wants to". I didn't take it seriously at all. it was one of the many conversations of men we had. the second time about an actress he likes, he said she has a guy who likes big dick. that she needed to meet him. I was very nervous. I had already tried some sticks, a few very large. I already knew what men like that are capable of doing to us. then my eyes took on another dimension of him. I realized why his girlfriend was so jealous and tough with other women. because there was a rumor that a co-worker cheated on her boyfriend with him. because a friend of mine who had an affair with him prefers not to talk about it, shuns the subject. the behavior of the women around says a lot. his current one is extremely anxious away from him. doesn't like to lose sight of him. it's quite sticky. today I understand a lot why. the third and last time he said something to me was two years ago. chatting on the smartphone. sent an idiotic comedy video, a dirty old woman being interviewed saying she liked gifted. I laughed, of course. he had already begun to show enthusiasm in matters of sex. I tried to disguise it, but the way I dealt with him was already more loving, in the sense that my friendship with him mattered to me. after my laughter he said "this one with 25 cm (9.8 '!) like mine was going to fuck all over". I asked "but man, so many fake news out there, how can you say something like that without proving me?" he laughed and changed the subject. since then I sent him 2 or 3 jokes about gifted people and they were short laughs. he really doesn’t go back to the subject and has a while. it’s complicated to deal with. anything I move on can ruin the friendship and I don't want it. he is compromised, me too. we get along well with her and i don't even want her to suspect that he turns me on. I keep imagining her under a man that size. in a strong hug I could see what he can do. always in those subtleties. the opportunities to see him today are few and when it happens, they are conversations about our tastes, nothing much. usually he is she. whenever i'm really needy i feel like sending him pornography but i don't do it. I'm afraid. does anyone go through a similar situation?