Here's the background to this story. We've been very close friends for 2 years. All that time she's had about 3 or 4 boyfriends. However, we're very lovely and touchy with each other, especially when drunk. The problem here is that I'm bi (I haven't told her) and I find extremely attractive. I haven't ever made a move on her because I assume she's straight. However, whenever we go out dancing, things get hot and heavy with us. We're often grinding on each other's pussy, dancing intimately face to face. The odd thing is that when both of us are out alone, we're all about each other and never respond to any advances from guys. Another thing is that our dancing gets progressively suggestive as the night (and alcohol) goes on. So much so, that our mutual male friend who hangs out with us on some nights, gets so many questions about if we're lesbians etc. On a couple occasions, we have been dancing very intimately on the lounge couches in clubs. Basically, I (the smaller one) sit between her legs while she sits and basically give her a lap dance (pressing my butt up against her pussy). Often times I'll back and be kissing her neck while we do this. Also, she's the one who seems to be encouraging it. I just simply go along, but don't push forward. I get insanely wet when we do this, I can only assume she feels the same way as well? In addition to our dancing, we're extremely lovey dovey with each other often saying how much we love and miss in each other (we live pretty far away so we only see each other every 2 weeks or so). Now the signs seem obvious doesn't it? Well I thought so too, so last month I asked her out of the blue to by my friend. First I said I was bi, then asked her. Her response "I can't be bi or gay, it's not that I don't find you attractive, it's just I can't feel that way'. Since then we've had several arguments (without mentioning what happened, just bitching at each other for not caring), and haven't spoken to each other since. I miss her so much Last week I told one of my gay male friends what happened and he said he reacted exactly the same way when his first gay love (who he spent all his time with) finally kissed him. He said he pushed him off, said he wasn't gay and then was cold to him until they just stopped talking. He then said, after 9 months he realized he was gay, but afraid to admit it to himself. This is exactly how my friend reacted with me, she denied it nicely, then was cold (never wanted to discuss it) until we "broke up". Could it be that's afraid to admit her bi or gay feelings toward me? Is this common? What can i do (if anything) to make feel comfortable enough to admit it? My gay friend is saying I should win her trust back, then kiss her. He says if she objects, be forceful and kiss her more until she's into it and wants it herself (is this rape?lol). I'm so hurt and confused by all this. We're both young (low twenties) and while I'm very comfortable admitting I'm bi, I don't think she is. In summary my questions are: 1. Does she have gay or bi feelings toward me? 2. Does her reaction to me admitting my feelings, mean she has them for me as well, but is afraid to admit it? Also, in a Large Penis related topic. I have a boyfriend who has a large cock (8.5 x 6.5) and sex is amazing with him. Now is it weird that I want my female friend and him to hook up and have sex as well? I love them both and the idea of them having sex turns me on sooooo much. Am I crazy? I used to let two of them dance as vulgar as they wanted to when we partied at clubs. My other female friends thought I was insane.