Hello everyone !
Maybe I should have post this some where else but I don't assume my bisexuality and it is a real issue for me.
I am 23 yo from Belgium (please excuse my English mistakes) . 4 years ago, I broke up with my girfliend (we stayed together for 3 years) not because I didnt love her anymore but because I was lost and ashamed. I was lost because I was feeling sexual attraction for guys too... At first I thought I was gay but with the years I can say that I am à bisexual guy today... Since I broke up, I have a problem which is I am afraid to be engaged in a relation with someone... I ve never fell in love with a guy (didnt know if it is because I dont assume or if I am just sexually attracted by guys) but when I fall in love with a girl, I will flirt with her but as soon as we are closer, I am just always running away and I hâte myself for that because I never have any explanations for those persons I loved. I always have these thoughts "Which girl would accept a boyfriend which is also attracted by guys ?" and "how should I tell her that I am bi ?"... On the other hand I ve never tried anything with guys because I am top afraid of how I will feel after that... And I know that I could not be at ease in a relationship if I don't assume my sexuality.... So today, 4 years after I broke up, I am just really unhappy and my life at university is quite messy because I try to focus only on my studies but I am always thinking about this problem I have and of course no one knows for my bisexuality.... Sorry I hope I ve been clear enough to allow you to understand...
If I post this here, that is because I would like to know if someone has been in the same case and can give me some pièce of advice or even telling me his story..
Thank you for your reading
Maybe I should have post this some where else but I don't assume my bisexuality and it is a real issue for me.
I am 23 yo from Belgium (please excuse my English mistakes) . 4 years ago, I broke up with my girfliend (we stayed together for 3 years) not because I didnt love her anymore but because I was lost and ashamed. I was lost because I was feeling sexual attraction for guys too... At first I thought I was gay but with the years I can say that I am à bisexual guy today... Since I broke up, I have a problem which is I am afraid to be engaged in a relation with someone... I ve never fell in love with a guy (didnt know if it is because I dont assume or if I am just sexually attracted by guys) but when I fall in love with a girl, I will flirt with her but as soon as we are closer, I am just always running away and I hâte myself for that because I never have any explanations for those persons I loved. I always have these thoughts "Which girl would accept a boyfriend which is also attracted by guys ?" and "how should I tell her that I am bi ?"... On the other hand I ve never tried anything with guys because I am top afraid of how I will feel after that... And I know that I could not be at ease in a relationship if I don't assume my sexuality.... So today, 4 years after I broke up, I am just really unhappy and my life at university is quite messy because I try to focus only on my studies but I am always thinking about this problem I have and of course no one knows for my bisexuality.... Sorry I hope I ve been clear enough to allow you to understand...
If I post this here, that is because I would like to know if someone has been in the same case and can give me some pièce of advice or even telling me his story..
Thank you for your reading