Hey all! If you read my last thread here you read about my different preferences pre/post whacking off. Before I come I can be so excited about sucking a cock, but as I come I get completely turned off. The fantasy surfaces again the next time I whack off, rinse and repeat. I finally decided to make my fantasy into reality, figuring that I at least need to try to see if I like it in the real world and come to terms with my fantasy. I went to a swedish contact ad site with tons of new ads every day and signed up. My ad looks (roughly!) something like this: So far I've had several readers and one guy respond. He was 39 years old and lived nearby. I figured I might as well reply to him, and did so. He had a 7 inch thick meaty dick, and required cleanliness and discretion. We decided on a condom for blowjobs but not handjobs. I was quite excited at this point (this was just this morning!). Before long he wanted a picture of my face and I wanted one of his cock. He suggested we met in his car, which I said I did not want to do (you never know) and that we would rather meet at his place. At this point I was starting to chicken out. I'd fantasized about it so much that it felt surreal to think that it might actually happen (he wanted to meet as soon as today or tomorrow!) Given that he was not quite what I was looking for in the first place (although I am extremely excited about the potential for older thick veiny cocks, maybe that will come in the future) and I was feeling iffy about the situation, I blocked his profile and cut it there. Right now I am just looking for someone my age who I can relate to and perhaps even be friends with for a much more relaxed and safe environment. Just a buddy like any other whose cock I can play with when I want. I am hoping to get more of those replies in the future. But what do you guys think? I have a feeling I will be very nervous about the entire situation. Are they who they say they are? Can I trust their assurance of good health? Will I like it when I get there? Of course I was planning on using a condom for the suckjobs, but I'd love to try without one too. Anyone have experience on sucking with a rubber? Are any of my other concerns justified? What are your experiences? Looking forward to hear your responses, thanks!